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• Solemnization•
30 March 2011

So routinely, last night his dad and him fetch me from work and drove me home. As usual the normal chats in the lorry. Out of a sudden, his dad said,

'Hey, when you guys are free, go and book a date on 11.11.2011 for your ROM.. The date is nice and easy to remember...'

I was shock upon hearing what he just mentioned. Like I always thought that things are planned out among me and boy. And his dad suddenly came out with his suggestion on our future making me felt more nervous than before.

I felt scared somehow, but I don't know what is it that I'm feeling. Maybe I felt the pushed and the rush from his dad.

When I got home, I sat on the sofa with mummy, watching TV. I have been trying to find a good timing to tell her about what his dad mentioned. But then again, I failed to do it. I don't know how to phrase things up and break the news to her...something is just stopping me.

Now, this issue is bothering me. I guess I have to stop thinking and scaring myself. I have to stay calm and let things flow as it is... Boy, please be with me....


• photography•
28 March 2011

Was really having a lot of thought today, and this will be my third, also the last posts, of the day.

I owned my ever first digital camera when I was 14. I remembered I saved up very very long, before I owned myself, not sony, not olympus, but panasonic lumix camera. During then, I know nuts on camera. I know nuts about macro, which has become something I love today. I know nuts about angle, about flashes, about focusing, about ISO, about aperture and so on... What really inspires me?

I guess there was one day when my sister randomly discussed something about being a photographer and something about she wanted to earn money to get a really professional camera. It was seriously damn random that day, and subsequently, when I went Cameron Highland last year, I happened to shot a macro-effect photo, which I got so excited about.

From then, I started playing into different modes and have started looking into DSLR. And when my circle of friends grew overtime, I got easily excited and affected by friends who carrys DSLR to events, and I always nudged Boy, saying that 'One day I will owned one of those...!!!'

Till today, these passion surprisingly grew deeper in me. It's like a candy. Taking photos like picking flavours of the candy. You will just go on and on until you found the flavour you like, in this case, you found the capturing style you like, and you will just keep carrying on with it... To me, it's really addictive. Something I will never want to stop. Not stopping in life. Because photos always contain meanings in them. Some contain stories, even.

Today, I've been to many many places, most of the time alone, snapping thousands over photos. Although I have neglected my lumix digital camera, in the end my sister adopted 'him' back. hahaha...
Besides, photography eventually bring few friends closer in my life. Even people whom I hardly get the chance to talk to, because we don't have a common topic to strike. But with photography, I found them. And we can chat endlessly, aimlessly... People like Justin and Jonathan were the ones whom have been sharing and exchanging photos and giving advice for one another. And my new kakis, also my princesses, jeslyn and Er. Well, I love the moments when we discussed about how to make shots better, and it's time for a snappy date for us soon...

I believe, soon, photography will not be done alone. I gathering more people into this affection. When all of us have only one goal, shooting beautiful photos, eventually put grins on the photographer. And being one photographer is still the ultimate goal afterall... I'm all-way-through determined.



:)


• Once and for 2 years•

I HAVE FINALLY MADE IT...

Actually I have never imagined getting licensed for the 3 certificates a Regisitered Nurse should carry. I feel so proud of myself. And somehow I really want to thank my manager for giving me the opportunity to achieve them.

I am now proud to announce that I am certified for:

-Basic Cardiac Life Support
-Life Support for Cardiac Nursing
-Automated External Defibrillation


In a nurse's card holder, it's proud to carry this 3 certs with you everywhere we go. Okay, at least for me I felt proud about it. It's aint easy going through all these, I should say. But it certainly gives me the adequent knowledge I need to know in case of emergency. Maybe I started my nursing career in somewhere pretty stagnant, referring to ward 11/12. And now that I am in this acute area, definitely I feel more appreciated than previous. There were times when I felt helpless when my patient turns critical, and seeing them passed out and later passed on, isn't something every beings want to see. Neither do I like that experience. I'm glad I could be more tactful and mindful about what to do next, guiding junior nurses managing time of emergency. It's that kind of change that I see on myself before and after going for those courses.

Somehow, I love my job more than how I felt previously. And I'm finally ready to face advance diploma. I supposed with the new hobby of photography in my life now, I have a career of which I young passioned for, I know the passion actually hasn't really dies off... And now, I have love nursing from another angle, once again...

:)


• when all they do makes me amazed•

It's been three years and I have finally met the final group of friends of Boy. There's this really huge group of people whom I've yet to meet until yesterday. It was one of their usual gathering, and this time round, I decide to turn up with Boy. I was astonished by these people. The part I was astonished was what makes this group of strangers, come together, meeting each other, organising meet ups and makan session once a while.

From what I know, the gang of them knew each other from 'Who Live Near You' and that's the reason why they name their group as 'Bedok Reservoir Gang'. It's been almost 6-7years this group has sustained, and I personally find it pretty cool. How do one make a group of strangers come together, and carry on with once-a-while activities and sustain these long? They all come from different background, different trade, different exposure in life, different interests. One thing in common, they all live near one another....

So yesterday's outing was a celebration of birthday for one of the member. It's really my pleasure to know more people, from different age group, especially those in their 30s, 40s. It's damn amazing. (Well, I know I've repeat that many times.) And after yesterday's outing, I did not just know more about his friends, I had myself exposed to people of a different environment and best of all, I got myself included into the 'BR gang'.( Sounds like some 'secret society' groups, but I can guarantee it's never one...)

I simply enjoyed my outing last night. Something pretty unforgettable. :)


• recent updates•
27 March 2011

Today is my last day of nigth shift.
Like finally another round of nights is over.
Grateful to have peaceful nights this time.
With copperative patient through the nights,
make my life so much easier.
That's how I like things to be...

It's been sad to hear from friends about their breakups.
Recently one, and today I heard one more.
Well, it's not easy to retain a relationship without working out with each other.
Or sometimes, meeting the right people at the right time.
I remember how 'playful' I used to be.
When Subha and Fifi recalled the days back then in secondary school.
I change partners like changing undies.
Come and go, come and go.
Till today, things are more or less settled down in my love life.

Come to think of it,
I have never imagine myself settling at such young age.
I always told myself, in the past, that I will get married in my late 20s.
But I supposed I've change a lot, gradually though.
I can remember how I used to be, and what I am now.
But when it comes to comparing,
I have jumped a big leap.

On top of the jumped,
I guess Weihao and my dearest Sis played a biggest role in changing me.
Over the years,
my perception change with things that have been happening around me.
With dad's leaving, with mum and bro, with sustaining a long relationship with the one I love, with work, with family bonding, and financially.
I'm glad I'm having support from these people,
who have really change me into a better person.
I reflected I used to be worse, isn't it?

Things are turning out smoother for me.
And I'm waiting for the first trip to BKK with my whole family.
It's really the first ever trip since born....!!!!
:))


• Advance Diploma•
24 March 2011

I know I have been mentioning about going for adv dip for almost 1 year.
Last year's intake, I failed to go in as a self-sponsored student.
This year is not going to be another bet.
Heard from a lot of advice,
and I guess getting myself sponsored with the hospital isn't really the worst choice.
Thinking about my monthly income.
Thinking about the near future.
Thinking about a lot of things...

I'm aiming for the October intake.
Back to NYP.
Back to schooling life.
Maybe by then, I'll miss all my princess, miss my working area...

I'm in my comfort zone now.
And it gives me quite a while to make up this decision.
I should not stay too comfy.
I'm young, and it's time to fight...
Endure, pull through, and fight all my way through...


• end of the month•
20 March 2011

It's coming to end of the month soon.
And I know I hasn't been blogging as often as before.
Because March is a busy month for me.

Anyway, I'm finally licensed being a 'Life Support Nurse'.
I'm so happy about it.
It's not easy at all, to get it done once.
I remember how fearful I used to be,
when I was schedule for this course.
Because I know it's never easy to get it done so easily.

Thanks to Cindy,
who gave up her one day off,
meeting me after my work and revise the algorithm of CPR with me.
She really helped me a lot.
And I really appreciate it.

I felt more confident facing resuscitation now.
Really.
This course is really useful.
Now that I've been through it,
I guess I know better what to do when helping in resus.

Coming to end of month,
another course: AED.
All the way for it...

After AED, I shall start my driving lesson.
All these courses at work,
is slowing me down in driving.
And it's annoying...

Gonna have a lot of accomplishment this year.
:)


• it's 40!•

had the simplest celebration with love during our 40th moniversary.
life like yesterday?
I heart!!!

:)


• outdated photos (JB tour)•
























• end of Leave•
14 March 2011

I ended my AL with 3 days in JB.

First two days was a self tour.
Boy and I actually made ourselves been through something extra.
Many people claims that JB is very dangerous,
be it the people, the environment, the traffic.
We got our way to Woodlands checkpoint by train and bus.
From JB checkpoint,
we took a cab to Suria City hotel and had a night stay there.
Next morning checking out,
and we were on our feets touring JB.
We had the intention of touring to further places,
but the fear was stopping us.

Talking about getting a cab.
We met a ridiculous driver,
who wanted to conn us.
From Malaysia checkpoint to SC Hotel cost only RM7.
But the driver tried by starting his price at RM30.
It's was clever of me to bargain with him,
and end up not boarding his cab.
I know such trickster exist along the way.

The 3rd day at Malaysia was better.
We travel around JB with tour bus.
With boy's mum and dad,
and a big group of other people...

We travel from Malaysia checkpoint to some eating house,
to Yong Peng,
then to Ayer Hitam.
Next to Kluang and somewhere else( which I forgot the name),
and then back home.

Photos will definitely be up on next post.
View my FB photo album will make a faster move.

All and all, my AL have been purposefully spent.
Every part of the event have been so great.
Within short period, I've accomplished a lot.
The best thing is, Boy was with me most of the time.
It's been pretty tiring for him,
to run like a horse like me.
I got him so tired, which I felt really bad.
Well, it was a fruitful trip.
Gotten many things back home.
And of course, I have to eat grass till my next pay comes.
I'm looking forward for MAY!
Because i'm having my annual leave by then again.
:)


Though my AL was greatfully spent,
I have not been able to study much for my LSCN (life support course).
And i'm turning into a dead meat soon.
it's tomorrow.
And exam is on thurs.
Gonna start back to work todaaaay.
S**T!
Well, time to switch mood to work once again.
I forsee it's gonna be dreaaaaaad!
:(


• Annual Leave•
10 March 2011

It's already half way through my Leave.
And everyday I'm scheduled for something.
That's the way I wanted my leave to be spent.
Fully utilized, as always.

Celebration of my Boy's birthday was a success.
Though I promised to give him 3surprises,
I think it didn't turn out with much surprise in the end.
Successfully made Oreo-Cheesecake for his 23rd.
And it really tasted well.
I was proud about it,
cause it's only my first time making it.

Chalet held from Sun-Mon.
With colleagues.
Aloha Loyang as Pasir Ris.
It was all self planned.
I'm glad the Royal Family met each other.
Like finally a BIG gathering for all of us.

For yesterday,
I've got myself enrolled to BBDC to learn driving.
Felt quite disappointed with their system.
All they mentioned regards with 'Money'.
Anyway long way to go before I really start my pract...

Went roaming around town for shooting.
And I was amazed by how obedient the butterfly is,
staying still for me to give it a beautiful shots.

Tomorrow it's time for another trip down to JB.
It's gonna be a straight 3days trip.

Photos are all up in FB.
Will post it up here if I have the time...
I'm happy that my shots have been improving gradually...
I love it...

My annual leave is meant for me to relax and enjoy.
Days when I can live the next day without thinking about work.
But LSCN and AED course is coming within days.
And I have not studied AT ALL.
I have not flipped any page to study yet...
And I hate it using my leave to study for exams!!!
:(


• it's a one time thing•
01 March 2011

some things are good to happen once in a lifetime.
things like taking driving theories.
the part i hated most in studying,
is always those long dreadful theories.
because all you have is to MEMORISE and get all those facts into my small head.
(big brains though...)

so i made it with a one time pass.
i don't know why i just got so proud over it.
maybe because my bro boost all his way to me about him getting it one time passed too.
and i'm trying to show that he isn't the only one who is capable.

i'm so happy.
really.
i've gotten rid of the theory part.
and now i can focus on practically driving.

have i mentioned that i was a 'wheel-freak'?
i am phobia with things that control by wheels.
i fall many time while learning how to ride a bicycle.
falling in all direction.
i fell that day while learning how to skate,
but ended up falling into the bush.
like seriously into the bush.

now, i'm gonna learn trying to control bigger wheels in four.
and i hope i can get it done with one time too.
all the best to me...
:)



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