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• my WANT!•
30 November 2009



next in my wanted list.
my M1 plans are expiring end of the year.
so it's time to change plan!!!
with changing plans,
NEW PHONE!
nokia E72.


boy plan to get the same phone too...
great...
i'm thinking of getting black or silver....
hmm....


• the f word (freedom)•
29 November 2009



F for freedom.
the word i adore and craves for all the time.
knowing i need it once after a busy work,
i finally have it granted.
or maybe it was preplanned.
whatever it is,
i'm having it after today.

total shiokness.
5days off from work can be something goddamn rewarding.
especially at a crazily busy workplace.

PH+ ALs+ restday+dayoff= freedom.
again, shall enjoy my life to fullest once again.
i love december.
december is always MY best month.
everything goes happening!
and i like it being happening too.
the streets are happening.
people snapping with decos of lights.
with trees in invert-conical shape.
the days of warmth and fun.
the month of happiness and companies.
the memories of great relationships....

goodbye sorrow,
goodbye sweats of toughness.
goodbye palpitation.
goodbye motions of fast pace.

hello peace.
hello fun.
hello to FREEDOM!
hello slow-motion....


• shopping! and TGIF!•
27 November 2009


first of all,
Happy hari raya haji to all my muslim friends...
next,
it was odd that i was given PH today though i'm not muslim,
and i'm sure many colleagues out there need this day off much more than i do.
i don't understand what my manager has been thinking these days.
management is getting more and more cock-up.
*ventilation*

after a steamboat-ING session last night,
my sis is planning for shopping session today.
finally, family day arrives.
the day where mum, sis and me go out tgt...
it's been a tiring week of working and finally,
all 3 of us are free for each other...
awaiting for a BIG feast later.( i'm sucha gluttony.)
and more shopping.
more clothes.
and shoes.
and bags.
and a bit of everything...
NICE!
life is meant for enjoying.
i'm glad i've been doing that everyday...


PS: i'm still feeling damn astonished that my pri sch friends are gathering everyone back...
damn shock! damn never imagine.
i thought i've lost it.
i thought it's over since PSLE.
i thought after so many years,
it's hard to get back veryone.
now this is call:
Nothing is Impossible!
and now i know,
network is really something damn great,
singapore is indeed damn small...


• when i was young•
26 November 2009


(pleasee note that small girl sitting right at the right side front row!!!)
yea... that's ME!

i can't believe what i saw in FB this morning.
some familiar names,
that appeared in the early stages of my life.
SOUTH VIEW PRI SCH!
i was there for 6 full years.
roaming endlessly and then completed my pri sch life.
the life when i was adapting and growing.
the part when everyone was playful and innocent.
the naive children,
and now all grown up having own philosopies and life plans.
the memories of the growing up,
indeed good memories...

to my surprise,
benjamin added me.
adib added me.
subsequently many familiar names added me as well.
michelle tan and michelle sim.
wang chin.
jia jia.
ching quek.
wen jun.
jason lim and jason goh... (and many more)
ohhhh... so many many...
and they are planning for a gathering...
how nice does that sound.
seriously,
i have never imagine to be able to contact them since the day we left SVPS.
seems like i'm going to regain the feel of being young,
with gathering of Class 6G of year 2000...
seriously i can't wait for the gathering...
i will attend.
i definitely WILL!


• going down pavement•
24 November 2009

pavement going downwards.
things ain't always smooth.
just like how i prepare for the birthday bash.
have already constantly reminding myself,
the more you want it the way to be,
the more it'll not turn out.
i have to drop the idea of wanting it too perfectly.
i'm always like that, isn't it?
wanted everything to perfectly done.
without any flaws.
and ensure everything is going accordingly.



it's gonna be another day,
out of that tiring 365 days.
where i meet ALL my friends
on this particular day of mine.
a party for everyone.
shall drop the senses about the word 'birthday'.
and enjoy to the fullest...
that's all about life.
*fullstop*


• life is like that•
21 November 2009

knowing you are in this world,
how are you going to make the world accommodate with your plans?


there was a lesson learnt last night.
which gave me a deep thought on the issue.
and again,
the story of adapting to changes comes in...


many a times people made mistakes.
humans are not like machines,
who don't operates fast and detect mistakes fast.
then again machines are still machines.
they do made mistake and goes haywaire someday too.


it's all about doing something extra.
doing the CHECKS before anything becomes CONFIRMED.
doing checks reduces the mistakes that might occur.


if mistakes occurs,
there's is nothing you can do to undone them.
all you have to do, is to face it, solve it, move on...
only will you realised you get yourself hurt even more
when you tagged on to the mistakes for too long.
so what's the point of hurting yourself?


life is not about hatred and pushing of blames,
but to accept and change things to how you like it to be.
then again, balancing of changing comes in.


mayday said this before:

「握緊拳頭的話,你只能對抗這個世界;張開雙手的話,你就可以擁抱全世界」
simply means:
clenching your fist, results in going against the world.
open arms, will your able to grab hold...


• 2nd anniversary part 2•
20 November 2009

how long have we waited this day to arrive..
till our neck are like giraffe.
and after so many months of being with each other,
it's another year of celebration.


this year,
we din forget about transport
so hubby rented a car.


this is what i call ' SERIOUS-LOOK'.
i love this look of him.



i, happily in the car...


Plans for spa initially.
but we din go for that in the end.
a sudden change of plans,
and we manage to stop our craves @




so many pan-scallop cleared.
nice huh?



er... i do feel we look kinda alike...


movie at grand cathay after that.
watched 2012.
that got our butts numbed like crazy.

next stop...

' Welcome to Esplanade'








more photos...



"will you marry me?"


ans: no rings? try again next time... (ahahaa)


my lovely sunflower...


do i have that carefree look?

'a glipse of HOPE'




and we walked to fullerton.
and saw an animal...

MERLION!!!


"ta-dah"


merlion was kind enough to water my sunflower...


thanks to the tourist, we manage to get a proper photo of us.
orangeeeeeee...


and ...... purrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrple!





my playful hubby.

next stop?
Lau Pa Sat
you will never believe what i ate...

satay and? SMELLY TOFU!!


sting ray!!


smelly tofu is too smelly. look at his face.

i always wanted to try smelly tofu.
spore's not so bad.
not very smelly.
and we manage to finish everything.
(finally! i knew how smelly tofu taste like...)


Desert time!






and there goes...
food in our tummy.


while on the way home...

my penguin, the birthday boy.


his, once again, serious look.


and bungle fast falling asleep...




bungle: penguin, what are you trying to do? Come Down!!!


last of all,
kiss goodbye.
home sweet home.
with a last bit of happiness we share before the day 19Nov turns to 20Nov.
a long day for us.
a nice memorable one.
my dearest guy.
happy with him.
never gonna live without him.



• finally another year!•
19 November 2009


Ray Chua,

Happy 2nd Anniversary, Boy.

It's been 730days being with you.
I know there's more to come.
Thanks for being there for me.
No regrets being with you.
My lovely piggy head,
I love you...


• coming back•
17 November 2009



watching the distance travelled over the years,
it's nice thinking back what had been done.
knowing what you have now,
was planned before.


thinking about the past.
was something i have been doing these 2days.
seeing what was lost,
and what was gained.
looking back on how much i've walked.


finally i come to this stage of life.
i guess it's all fated.
''if i've never made this choice in the past,
how would life be right now?''
i have been asking myself this question.
it's all the experience in life that i've been through,
causing myself to have certain kind of thoughts.
and i guess, these were all fated as well.


somethings are really beyond our control.
so we only have to let things be the way it is.
MOVE ON. that's the word.
smiles to life ahead, Anna.



PS: two more days to go. more nice photos of us will be up then...


• fcuk you!•
16 November 2009

that was what i blurted out early this morning.
it wasn't on purposed.
but due to the fact an incident actually happened.


if you are afraid of cockroach,
please do not continue reading.


this morning,
as usual, went bathroom to shower.
wear that big crocs shoes and proceed with the routine shower.
after about 10mins or so,
i felt something in the shoes.
jerking out the shoes,
i saw cockroach coming out of the shoes.


"fcuk you!!"
that's what i accidentally blurted out.


what my mum says is true.
the more you are scared of a particular thing,
the more it will appear in front of you...


• ventilation•
15 November 2009

like what i post in my facebook status,
i need some kind of venting out the feeling i had deep in my heart.
i was not able to have a good chance to chat with someone close.
so some of it will be spoken out here.


i cried last night.
part of venting out the trouble i had for getting the BEST venue for my bday.
found the good ones,
yet inaccessible.
found the nice ambience ones,
yet over my barget.
found those accessible ones,
yet doesn't comes in with buffet style.


like what many said,
my expectations are TOO HIGH.
well, it's true.
that day's gonna be MY day,
and i really want that day to be perfect.
maybe i'm too choosey, picky, want things done perfectly.
so when things din get according to plans,
i felt lousy.


guess sis and boy have been helping me a lot,
yet hearing too much about what i want,
and all the dissatisfaction in every point.
(why am i so HARD to be PLEASED!!!!)



another incident:
i heard so much about her.
i really wanted to help.
i treat her like my younger sis.
knowing she's already 18,
pretty grown up already.
and she hated the feeling of being control.
just like me when i turned 18 too.
everyone thinks that you are still young.
but generally at the age of 18 is consider pretty grown up.
time for being independent.


YET,
she wasn't as sensible as i thought she was.
i thought she was strong in her thinking.
knowing what was right to do,
and what wasn't.
i was told many times to care for her,
but never in my life do i really have a younger siblings,
i really don't know how to 'take care' of young adults to be frank.

how i wish i'm a counsellor(again),
nevermind.


things have not really turn out that bad.
situation right now can still be salvaged.
but it's really not about the solving part,
but about how to help her.
everyone wants to know what she's thinking,
and we want an explanation of what had been done.


seriously i have already go through this stage once.
someone important in my life turned out drastically.
i really wish i could help.
from the previous incident,
i regretted myself for not knowing how to counsel people.
i hope i could really help this time round.
partly because i can't bare to see another close friend going the wrong path.


• long life rain•
14 November 2009


it has been raining since morning when i reached home from my second night.
and till now,
time check: 03:20am, 14 Nov,
it's still raining.

sometimes i just love the season from nov to dec.
raining season.
cold weather.
streets with lights with deco of christmas.
yet seems like lonely christmas.

how i wish i'm sleeping with this cold weather,
tucking like a cocoon in my thick blanket.
finally tomorrow is sleeping day.
another long day for me tomorrow.
shall accomplish all unfinished work leftovers.

no plans for sunday yet.
time for a short shopping.
planning to get myself a nice tankini...
i'm sure it's gonna be in use one day....
(everytime when i receive news regarding MAYDAY, my heart beats faster)

awaiting another 5 days for our BIG DAY!


• james orbinski•
13 November 2009

Came across a book from this arthur,
James Orbinski.
Book name: An imperfect offering.

He made a good sentence that cause me to think about it for so long.

it quotes something like,
' if you want to laugh, laugh as long and loud as you want.
if you are feeling sad, cry it all out.
if you are pissed, vent your anger out.
sometime human just need to express their feelings out.'

i guess i'm some sort like what he has mention.
i nagged a lot on unhappiness.
on things that does not reach my expectations.

yet suddenly,
i felt being at extremes.
kinda reaching to limit.
the feeling of escape comes in again.
into my mind.
roaming it.
mind over body.
yet i'm unsure what i really want.
or maybe what can i do.


few things in life.
complicated.
how i wish life can be much more simpler.
acceptance is mainly what i need.
i need ACCEPTANCE!


maybe like what Dr Orbinski said is right.
as beings, we have to let out our feelings.
i guess it's time for me to let out again...


• work•
11 November 2009

some updates about work.
so now SGH is so STRESS about the magnet thingy.
'magnet' is some recognised system/ organisation in America.
and being the top hospital in spore,
everyone of us are affected by this magnet system thingy.
heard that they are worst than audits.
but anyway,
we need to learn them.
coz 90% of the staff will be auditted..
(i guess by then i'll be in another ward...)

yes talking about that,
my ward, or maybe my village, my kampong, my cabin ward,
is tearing down by end of DEC!!!!
so all my colleagues are going to the main building.
there isn't a choice for us to choose which ward we wanna go.
it's all random pick and put.

a pure 3months of exposure that's about to happen to me.
again, i know i have to adapt to changes.
so i'm quite prepared for the worst.
i'm prepared to be send to ward 46, renal ward, and even surgical ward.
shall take it like a attachment for me.
just like how i been thru during PRCP.



for today,
night shift for me.
hope i won't get anymore MC.
as this might be my last few days of night shift.
sister Koh implement a new system for the ward.
'more permanent night staff.
and no night shift for the rest.'

so what now?
the rest of us will not have any extra allowance?
and what?
we'll only get to work on night if night staff go for annual leave?
what nonsense?
sigh...
don't know what sister is thinking...
what a SCUK mgmt...



many upcomings...

next wed: clinical teaching at ward.
next thurs: 2nd anniversary celebration.
24 Nov: wild wild wet with colleagues.
11 Dec: ECG exam.
13Dec: ECG ward sharing session.
20Dec: my 21st birthday celebration. (^^v)


a busy year-end ahead...


• i've learnt•
10 November 2009

was reading 'Who Move my Cheese?' last night.
was half way through the book.
everyone who read the book,
shares the stories with their friends,
and it really affected people.


how much can one person adapt to CHANGES??
the word changes simply refers to,
one have been in a comfort zone.
not realising changes might occur one day.
when it comes,
what will they do?


it's simply true that everyone needs to adapt to changes in life.
your love ones, your job, your finance, your daily life.
everything.
when we get too comfortable in the zone,
we tend to take things for granted.
take it like your parents,
they are still alive,
and life have been going on with them around.
what if one they left the world,
are you able to adapt to this change?


i've got a life example to share.
i've book a cafe for my birthday,
as many who received the invitations should know.
i've done all plannings and some preparations were done.


because my workplace is very near to that cafe,
the bus ride i took everyday passes by that place,
but i realised the cafe has not been open for the past few weeks.
something wasn't right.
and just this morning,
i received an email from them
stating that they were unable to hold my bday on that day.


i was damn devastated .
feeling lost.
thinking that everything has to start all over again.
invitations had to be re-do.
i know i have to adapt to that change.
which i have somehow predicted might happen.
i quickly look for another cafe.



this time round,
i found a better one.
though the place is now at holland V,
it's bigger to hold 50 pax.
10 main course.
decoration included.
cake included.
and i guess,
it's somehow more ex.
but still affordable.
changes has to be make asap.
and i apologise for those who have already gotten my invitations.
a new one will be coming.



PS: i can't believe i dealt changes all by myself within 2 hours.


• new song loaded•
08 November 2009

this song on my blog now,
sang by Eric Clapton.
title i guess everyone knows it...
a song full of thoughts..


rmb the first time i heard this song,
was sang by mayday.
stone use the classic guitar and started strumming and singing,
that hooked me onto the rhythm of the song.
this happen years back.


AND,
days back,
sis mention about this song again.
then having thinking hard of the song title.
and finally i managed to get the song in hand again.
i'll never forget the sentimental way of how stone sang it.
it's too captivative...


i really love this song...


• feels so odd•


watched ' My girlfriend is an Agent' with sis.
was a last min plan.
was thinking of going out with friends or with sis last night.
since i'm off on sunday.
feeling pretty odd having off on weekends.
afterall i've been off during weekends these two weeks.
really kinda weird.

anyways movie was nice.
damn funny that i realised i laugh too loud in theatre.
a good one.
:)

morning shift on monday.
so it means i need an early sleep.
maybe 830pm today?
morning shift will always be tiring for me,
even if i have 8 or even 10hrs of sleep.
because it's not abt the amount of time you sleep,
but the timing you have to wake up...

night is coming.
shall not missed out this time round.
but i know i'm working with that irritating staff.
nevermind.
will get over it soon...


counting down:
11DAYS TO 2ND ANNIVERSARY


• happy 48th birthday!!•
06 November 2009

first of all,

we celebrated mummy's birthday on 5 nov,

instead of 6 nov( actual birthday).

all thanks to my ward sister who din grant my request.

but well,

here we are enjoying ourselves still...










we went to orchard.

first stop at takashimaya. :)




my sis just got so hook onto this cinnamon sticks.

it's really damn nice.






my stone-face again.



mummy and i...:)



mummy and sis...



brought mum to osim,

and try on the massage chair.



i guess she has fallen asleep...



alright dinner at seoul garden as requested by the birthday mum.









some candid shots...



and touch-up..



with cam-whore...



my giant face... *smiles*



our *smiles*



their *smiles*



and more *smiles*



christmas seasons are always nice.

adding lights to the photos..

NiCE!


another candid shot..



i like this background effect...



dessert at secret recipe.

chocolate mud cake.

with chocolate indulgance.


dig-in!!



she's trying to feed me, not you...

(^^v)



it says:

mom, pretty, nice, loving, awesome.

hahaha...

no. 1 mum in the world goes to MY MUM...




it was really a long day of walking, shopping and eating.

and i got myself a book...

yes! 'Who moved my cheese?'
gonna read something to motivate myself..



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