was quite unhappy at work last night.
too busy and too tired.
managed to vent out a lil.
and thanks to yvonne for relating problems to me.


but i enjoy the part when i was transferring patients out of the ward.
i literally played with the portering guy.
at least that was something that made me smile that day at work.


can i not be deployed anymore?
today is my last day at work.
LAST DAY LINGERING AT CABIN.
so i can stay at caabin to pack up things,
instead of deployed out to work?
i'm off from thurs till sunday.


next week onwards,
OFFICE HOURS for all of us.
induction programmes for preparation of the new ward.
so mon to fri- 8 till 5.
sat half day.
sun off...
and i've got no idea when can we officially work in w68.


but how great was that?
i would love to go through all this process with my colleagues.
they are such a fun gang of people...
i must say the parties we carried out,
had made all of us got closer...
isn't it nice?




so there will be a change of venue for Mayday Concert too.
from the Padang to National Stadium.
well, it's their first outdoor Concert.
they are bringing the same theme from taiwan back to spore.
this is their 3RD 'DNA Concert'.
and i'm so looking forward for it.
this time round,
more things to prepare.
cause it's OUTDOOR!!!
i'm counting down the days to:
17th APRIL!!!
:))

i feel that i'm living a day as a day now.
many new updates everyday.
many new environment everyday.
many changes during this period of life.


yesterday sister chow called.
and ask me to go to work earlier.
cause they are having a party, AGAIN
this time round is for sister koh.
sister koh was shocked.
she said the same thing as what sister chow said,
when we throw her the party the other day.
she said "i will still be 50% in ward 68. no need to party..."
well, elderly this days... sigh...


so it's time to clear our lockers.
and was asked to bring minimal things to work.
what the...
i cleared most of the things last night.
photos, tidbits, 3 in 1 milo, pens, flowers...
today i need to get that shoes of mine out,
and my locker will be surrendered.
:((((


so mainly we'll be deployed to ward 63, 54 atw, and 46.
WHAT!?!??!
WARD 46!!!!!!
oh man...
i'm working till this friday.
please don't post me there any of these days.
i think i'll fight with SNM Sally..
urgh!!!


after much thought and calculation,
i'm intending to buy CROCS.
so wanna get olivia.
i once tried it at vivo,
and boy said it was nice.
and with that shoes,
it's gonna be useful when i'm in isolation ward...


have started saving for my advance dip,
and seriously i'm saving hard for it...
:)

went to watch 'When In Rome' few days back,
pretty nice storyline.
hilarious romance.
just like 'The Proposal'.


then i realised there were so many nice movies coming up.
i so wanna watch:
-How to Train Your Dragon
-Diary of A Wimpy Kid
-Bounty Hunter
-Kick Ass
-Iron Man 2

see!! so many of them...
Bounty Hunter is by Gerard Butler and Jennifer Anison.
oh... Gerard Butler...
salivates for him...


time for movies marathon soon...
:)

wanted to blog just now.
felt really really different and difficult.
knew i've got a lot to expressed and typed.
but since the unhappiness have all been spelled out,
i guess i don't have the mood to blog anymore.


and when i wanted this off days to come so badly,
it turns out to be an upset weekend...
big SIGH!!!!

so SGH is expanding.
and upgrading.
expanding to have extra beds from Alexandra Hosp.
from Bright Vision Hosp and maybe AMKH.
upgrading to paperless.


and more changes such as:
sister koh not being the main manager of ward68.
and it's gonna be sister phua.
new manager.
new management, i guess.


changes that is going to occur to me so quickly.
and i hope i'll be able to adapt to it quick as it goes...
like what i've learn from 'who move my cheese'.


told sister koh about the advance diploma.
the october intake.
it's time for big decision that will affect my future.
to bond or not to bond?
this is going to be the most headache question i'm gonna face for the next few months.
how i wish things were simpler.
but if it's not tough,
i won't learn,
i won't grow...
right?
i have to work hard...
time to start...
time for preparation....
and i'm ready for it!!

besides feeling dead after working non-stop,
we had celebration for the one whom we gonna missed.
SISTER CHOW!
as planned.
tuesday was the celebration.


chick that's finger licking goooooooooood...


vegetarian sushi made by sharon.


sandwiches by oyah ma-ma...





cakes made by MJ's mummy...

let's talk about last night's experience at ward 58 high dependency.
i was physically there,
but not mentally.
having work for so many days,
and yet you were being thrown to other ward.
where else can you get motivated to work?


it was quite fun last night though.
again, saw psy patient.
i seriously feels that there are more mental patient compared to the past.
guess the society were the cause.
anyway,
hourly monitoring.
getting familiarise with their equipments.
because the last time i managed general surgeries patient was like 3years back?


when i saw sister phua,
i was like,
'eh!! isn't this the SSN who scolded Alice when we were attached to w58 in year 2?'
then i saw seetha.
and heard more stories about sister phua and sister koh.
i mean the things in between this two ward sisters.
hmm...
interesting.


anyway i'll be stuck to that ward for another 5days.
total dreadness.
i missed the fun i always had at my own ward.
because you know what they love to hear and what makes people laugh...
and when you are posted to somewhere else,
you have to be so so so serious in your work,
and normally you have not much to say.
because you are entering somebody's territory.
so it wasn't nice being deployed.
besides the part that you can learn something new...


morning shift tomorrow onwards.
after 7days straight of afternoon shift.
return with 3days of morning,
and it's time for off days.
it's only tuesday.
when's friday?
is it coming soon?
is it near?
sigh...
i'm still be mentally not exist at work..


farewell party for sister chow today...
the most helpful NC i've ever met.
sad that you're leaving us.
for the better of yourselves.
we understand why you're leaving.
do take care and eat more when you're at AIC.
all the best to you,
and all the best to the rest of the cabin crew.
:)

sorry but i lied.
i lied my way through while i was deployed.
didn't know how much it'll affect.
but i didn't want to reveal the fact about my family.
i don't reveal it to everyone.


i once explained to sri from w54 about it.
and yesterday the rest of the staff asked me the same qns as well.
i lied about it.
although i know IT was very unique.
thanks about the compliment.
but there were stories behind it,
which i don't feel like sharing to EVERYONE,
who ask me about it.


i am sure i do have the rights on who to share with isn't it?
regretful towards juliana and gangs,
sorry about the lie.
i have my reasons behind it...
and being deployed to w54 during weekend was fun.
though i receive ill patient like Atrial flutter,
i did manage to use my skills in interpreting ECG.
i saw PVC in that patient's ECG rhythm....
at least i learnt something...


today to w58 high dependency.
all the best to me.
many say it was very nice working there.
i shall see...
and counting down.
6th day working.
4more days to go before off...


(i yearned for off day more than pay day...)

boy had changed his job for few weeks already.
it was still the start of making this job successful.
the start of proving people that this job can make money.
and i know the start will always be tough...


no matter what decision he made,
i'll always be beside,
give him advice,
and many many support.
because i believe he is talented.


so last night,
he drove his company van down to fetch me home.
it was so cute...
and it was the first time,
he drove me home from work.
we could have our own time.
going anywhere.
why do i say that?
because his dad has got a task everynight at 11pm.
and due to that,
he has to rush his time to pick me up from work.
and it was time constrained.
ok, nevermind.


it was a great night last night.
and seriously,
it was really sweet of him.
and i'm loss of words.
so i intended to bring those sweet memories to sleep...


however waking up realising i just had a Nightmare!!!
:(
damn scary.
always dreamt i was being followed or chased by somebody.
oh my...
-_-""
it was just a might mare...
hope i'm safe tonight though...





my 5th day working.
and will be deploy, again to ward 54.
and boy say he will be busy,
and might not fetch me back from work tonight...
T_T
saddened.
not motivated to be deployed at all!!

it's day 4 of working.
6more days to go.
and it'll be saturday.
my only off day.
to celebrate kenny's birthday.
:)


think of the upcoming event during off,
and motivate me to work in w58 HD.
pleaseeeee....


saw some nice events from SGH.
one-day Malacca trip from 630am till 1100pm.
50bucks.
lunch and dinner included.
shopping at Palawan.
(many of us were soooooo interested!!!)


jig saw puzzle competition!
sharon, mj, buva and i were excited over it.
first prize $100.
but it's really not about the prize.
it's about the crazy fun that we will be experiencing.
and it was part of a 'something else' we do besides working.
work hard, play harder....
another philosophy...
hahaaha...


oh and not forgetting the prawning event.
oh thanks MJ for opening that site.
there's so many event SGH is organising...
i'm so excited...
(:

so i went staff clinic yesterday.
was not told what happen to me.
ku-ku doctor.
well, i guess i didn't have any flu-like symptoms.
but i was given one day MC.
he insisted giving me.
i carry on to work.
gotten 2kinds of lozenges.
and those weren't stranger to me.
and also antibiotic.


carry on at work.
with more concern from my colleague.
later the day,
i felt much better.
the pain in my throat slowly subsided.
and realised my voice was fading.... ....


now i'm down with cough.
due to the dryness and itchiness i felt in throat.
guess it's not over yet.
it's only getting better!!
and thanks goodness,
i'm recovering...


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so updates about work.
i'm glad the workers are fast with the new ward.
because by april,
all of us will be able to transfer to w68.
with courses and more courses to attend,
before we really start working.
isn't it nice?
but meanwhile some of us will be deployed here and there.
mainly to w54, w58 and w57.
coming monday i'll be in w58.
from mon to fri.
and off weekend.
and same goes to Harmin.
she's joining me in w58.
but she's the alternate shift of mine.


so this is it.
everyone missed cabin.
everyone was proud to say that we were the CABIN CREW.
and we were once the CABIN NURSE.
this was our 'name'.
sounds cool.
and then,
goes sister chow.
sigh...
pretty sad news.
she will be posted to AIC to work.
farewell party for her this tues.
i am so going to attend.
and seriously she's been a very nice NC in our ward.
though a little naggy at times.
she does has a nice character.
and had helped many through the tough days.
shall snap more photos of her,
because she hated taking photos.
it's gonna be fun...
C;

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i actually told Shamili that i wanna take out my throat,
scratch it hard,
wash and disinfect,
and swallow it back.
because i just cough too hard till i'm so tired.
this feeling sarks!!!

have been popping panadol every 6hrs.
just to ensure that my body temp could remain below 37.5degrees.
immunity have been pretty low this few months.
after the gastric eruption,
body starts turning haywire.
this isn't a good sign.
where is that healthy me?
where???







last day of my leave today.
again.
dread to turn my mood to working.
because everyone was being deployed.
previously was w54,
now what?
can the construction worker speed up their job?
i can't wait for w68 to open.
because i hated throwing around,
like someone unwanted...

i was sad when i received the news when i was at highland.
i didn't expected it to happen so fast.
i thought it was somewhat within control.


i have not lose any kins so far,
and maybe because of that
i might not be able to understand how bad she's feeling.
the feel of losing somebody.
but i was sad about her loss.


i thought i could do much more to help her.
i thought i could give her more advices.
this is the worse part about being a nurse.
when you realised you couldn't do much if someone is at its terminal.


i hope she'll be able to overcome this loss,
and move on in life.
i know it's always hard.


so Yanting,
do approach us if u need somebody.
the ears, the shoulders, the hands, the tissue papers.
you need it, we have it.
all and all,
you still have friends.
you still have your siblings and mummy.
do move on,
and we will be by your side supporting you...
all the way, girl...
we missed your laughter...
cheers..


i will be there on tues...

after that 2 days trip...



nice background scenery.


the dew on those beautiful flowers.


pine trees. there's many of them there.