watch this movie yesterday.
initially i thought it was a love story,
BUT IT'S NOT.
this movie is so affective.
and NICE!
word of wisdom can be heard in the movie.
a lot of them.
and it's like...
makes me think a lot.


counselling people might be easy,
like Burke.
but he himself do need the counselling as well.
killing his own wife had been his darkest shadow.
sometimes u just need to throw out your whole heart to someone,
and there,
your load are gone...



moral of the story?
counsellors need counsellors too.
just like doctor may fall sick and need consultations too.
it's all the same.


but i've been wonder if that book 'A okay'
that appear in the show do exist?
if it does,
i want to grab one too...
:)


overall, nice movie.


(ps: the first time i see hubby cry in a movie that i did not!!!)

it's really true.
the news from erwin was true.
weihua is gone.
a secondary school mates has left this world.
due to motor bike accident 2days back.


i saw the chinese newspaper and it was printed pretty big.
he lost his life straight after the accident.
news claims that he collided onto a double deck SBS bus.
and died on the spot.


ohmyohmy...
this news is really horrifying to people who know him.
what a tragedy.
though i'm not close with him during school days,
but at least i know him.
and i'm sure the pioneer batch know him for sure.
i feel for the family.


may he rest in peace...




life is really fragile.
you will never know what might happen next.
thinking of it,
it's good to buy insurance.
then again,
like i always say,
live life till the fullest.
and never regret what you have chose and done.
because all done can never be undone.

as things went smoothly according the plans yesterday,
i shall share how mum and i surprise the birthday girl!


after so much effort to get this giant tortoise for her,
we came out with a surprise plan:

-give her the small tortoise when she's awake.
-make it sound like that's the only present she'll receive.
-then present the giant tortoise sitting on the red sofa at the living room.
-when she came down the stairs,
-i'll video the expression she gave.

what happened?
i thought i've changed the bad character i used to have 2years back.
hmm..
seems like it's coming back to me.
i lose faith easily in a relationship.
even in this going-2years-realtionship.
eventually i judge what it takes to be a good BF.
i set the expectations.
not realising that i wasn't even as good as i thought.
i wasn't good enough to even judge him.
like what my sis ever say:
"who are you to judge people.
we are just nobody to judge anybody."
it's true.
who am i to judge how good or bad he is.
i should learn to accept things the way it is...


well, i'm temperamental.
my mood swings badly often.
it's really bad.
but it was something i can never control.


he was patience.
he was calm when i blow up everytime.
he kept quiet everytime i throw the smelly mood at him.
he never argue back all the time.
not a single time!
he never walk away even!
never that ever happen..


he took in the anger i vent.
he still walk beside me making sure i'm alright.
he never give me up.


on the other hand,
i feel he wasn't good enough.
he always make me angry.
make me so irritated.
make me just wanna scream at his face.
make me just not wanting to see him.


i told him that.
he cried.
i cried.
suddenly i want me him to leave me.
i felt lousy.
i felt like a really bad girlfriend.
i want him to get a better girl.
i was silly to think this way.
he never want anyone else.
he needs me.
he wants me.


when he finds a job,
he makes sure the job timing suits my timing.
making sure we have the chance and time to meet.
when he knock off from work,
he went extra mile to call me or even look for me though he's dead beat.
during my night shift,
he came to bring me food,
making sure i won't feel hungry throughout the night.
he stayed up a little later just to chat with me so i won't feel lonely.
he do his everyday living,
with a thought of me all the time.
i was silly.
silly for not treasuring a goodguy right in front of me.
and even vent my uncontrollable anger on him.


this emotion happened all the time.
when i'm in a relationship,
the guys are the one sufferring.
due to my lousy attitude.
i thought i've changed.
but over all these years,
i have not!
i want to change.
i want to change.
i want to change!

(P.S: hubby, i'm sorry...)

ok, photos quality isn't good.
was lazy to edit it.
still visible.
anyway, K-singing at katong- Teo Heng.
3 hours of singing non stop.
was happy that i've learnt many new songs!!
wheee...~
pretty happy..

when it comes to year-end every year,
i will tend to get super busy.


after dealing with 3 birthdays and 1 wedding last month,
i have more events coming up.
next on my list is my sis's bday.
it's coming monday.
booked restaurant,
searching for her present.


then on 6 nov,
it's mummy's bday.
haven thought of how to celebrate for her yet.
have to start cracking my brain soon.
because her bday is always the hardest...


on 19 Nov,
will be me and boy's anniversary.
we have already plan out the events on that day.
so it's soon to be finalised.


after anniversary,
will be my big day.
the preparation for my bday is half way done.
just about to finish with the invitation card.
once done,
will be delivered to my friends with different ways.
i'm limiting that day with 50 guests.
because Casual Poet is just a small cosy cafe,
so i can't invite too many.
those not invited,
i apology for that...


a busy year end for me this year...
indeed a packed schedule...

the title speaks sleeping day, rest day and day off.
waking up at a weirdest timing at 11.58am.
waking up to realise i've slept for 3hours only.
home at 9am just now.
and here i am,
waking up at this moment just to switch my body clock to normal.


last night my night shift was- C.R.A.Z.Y.
my patient turn violent.
4of us "fight" him down.
causing my uniform to be stain.
damn!!!
if that stain can't be remove,
i'll not be wearing it again.


then also my patient turn ill and blood pressure was swaying.
and another having fever of 39.3 degree.
sometimes i wonder..
what is my ward covering?
it seems like we're taking acute care + chronic care+ mental care???
it's really ridiculous.
huh! whatever.
so the latest news was our ward will only close down,
when ward 68 is officially open.
so meaning it'll be next year March.
hmm.. i see..


enough about work,
boy had office meeting and it ended early.
however he still have to get back to his outlet to work.
but he is ending work early,
so we've planned to go Geylang for xiao long bao later...
i miss the food at geylang.
seriously i need foooooood...


over the pass few days (4days),
i've been complaining to everyone that i am hungry.
even after eating rice,
i felt hungry after 3- 4 hours?
and if i don't eat after feeling the hunger,
i actually do turn tachycardia and my body starts to tremble,
and will feel like fainting.
i really dunno what happen.
my colleague says i need more rest.
says my body is stressed.
very anxious.
hmm.. i'm trying to calm my breathing every now and then,
but it doesn't seems to help.
it's really weird feeling this way.
nvm.
3days off.
shall enjoy it.
gonna meet my boy soon.
ciao!

i am so sleepy right now.
second day of night shift.
and big sister (teo) ask me to have a rest,
because i am not myself today.
she says my reaction is weird today.
have been talking to myself during work.
and my reaction is also slow.
hmm..
dunno what's wrong with me.
i want my BED.
that 3 letters word yet so needed by me now.
i need that dimmed environment where i can sleep soundly.
4 hours to that benefits.
i'm so tired today.
how come...
argh...
guess i'll utter nonsense while passing report later..


it's our 23rd yesterday.
but din manage to meet him.
not even today or tomorrow.
maybe the only chance is thurs.
then it'll be 4days of not meeting.
dread.
bored.
rot.

actually i have no idea if i shall blog to this to public.
but this was what happen last night.


TWO illegal immigrant sneaked into vicker's house last night.
where's vicker's house?
it's that old shagged building behind my ward.
vicker's can be link from my ward exits.
and i cannot believe that actually happen at our ward,
that put our life at risk last night.


suddenly TV was cut off at our ward.
patient complain of no tv to watch.
called ppl to fix,
and that's when they realised someone cut off the cable wire.
they might think that that's the cctv wire?
i dunno.
i was having my break when our security chase us back into the ward.
omg! we were scared out of life.
hide in patient's room and cover the curtain.


well, one was caught.
the other was still in vicker's house.
it's seriously damn damn scary.
i'm on night shift today.
and i seriously don't feel like going..


hope the investigator have done a thorough job,
and i hope the hear good news soon.
hope the illegal was caught.
gosh...

well..
it's happy to see couples going through ups and downs.
and especially when you know they just been through the 'downs',
and is inclining upon the 'ups'.
i'm glad he's back from oversea.
back to his girlfriend,
who misses him so badly.
a long distant relationship ain't easy.
but i'm glad she pull through it.
they pull through it.
it's touching reading her blog afterall.
the description was so detailed,
yet not mushy and makes you feel happy for them.
and yes!
that's what i am feeling.


because i can never imagine myself even to steppin into the thing call 'LDR'.
long-distance-realtionship is indeed scary.
something i would never want to see myself in.
something i never want to experience in life.
maybe of that,
i feel for them going through that 3 months.


for a past 3 months that many might go through like a day after another.
but for her, for them,
it's a CHALLENGE and ENDURANCE.
awaiting. counting down.
to the day of recollide.
indeed a touching scene...

with many encounters in life,
that urges me to create dreams and goals in my life.
and eventually they accumulated when you don't have the time to fulfill them.


DREAMS
-be a councellor in the future.
-learn photography and own my profeesional camera one day.
-learn to play bass.
-to be able to speak a foreign language fluently( french).


so currently these are the dreams that i really want to fulfill,
with the amount of time throughout my working life.
i hope i can fulfill them before i regret not picking them up.

have been self thinking for a moment.
am i happy with my life now?
then i told myself to be contented with what i have now.
because many people out there might yearned to have what i am having.
then, i smiled to myself.

right now,
i am happy with what i'm having.
job. friends. kinship. family. healthy. love. money.
all these means:
GOOD LIFE.

as years past,
we grew up.
and slowly people around you start settling down with:
MARRIAGE!


my sis and i were invited to haniza's wedding.
it's really our first time attending a malay wedding.
well, we were lost at first.
and i guess throughout the whole ceremony.


it became like a lil bit of Moviebites Gathering.
with radiah( haniza's sister),
radianah, izyani, cima, zuliana, yusran and amir,
sis and i turned out to be the only chinese within.
sad that some didn't turn out,
because i really miss them.
i really miss the days back working at moviebites.



Dyah- the attention of the day.
she's is so so cute.
radiah's second baby.
i guess is 7month old.
see the way she bite my handphone pouch!!
finally a baby girl for her.
congrats to radiah as well.


malay wedding is soooo interesting.
from the husband moving into the wife's house,
and 'fetch' her to visit the husband's side family,
it's really fascinating.
though her wedding is simple and easy,
the 'feel' of getting married and the atmosphere do exist strongly.
i really have an eye-opener today.


my first malay wedding,
my first friend's wedding i've attended.
and that's haniza and azhar.
:)
once again,
congrats to this new couple.
:)

i urge for a travel.
so suddenly.
i feels like going oversea.
i wanna see the world outside singapore.
i've been too faithful to singapore for sooooo many years.
i guess it's time i plan for travel.
who has ever heard 'anna going out of spore?'
i guess that's never.


now not only feels like travelling,
i feels like staying oversea for few months too.
i mean isn't it great living at somewhere you don't know,
and survive out of the lost.
i know myself best enough,
i'm not a home-sick person.
soo maybe one fine day,
anna shall get out of spore,
maybe stay at australia for 3 perect months..
how does that sound...
and maybe then i can fulfill the dreams of gg for hotair balloon ride.
:)

was on training leave today.
went to connection one for
'management for performance of appraisee' course.
i'm glad harminder was there with me.
and to my surprise i saw more friends there.
i saw zahira, hui scen and yvonne as well.
all 5 of us sit in a row and...
GOSSIPS.
haha.. sharing session about the work at ward,
and if u're a nurse,
you know that gossip session gonna be non-stopppppppppping...


don't think we din paying attention to the course.
i do learn a lot from it.
so many words of wisdom,
a lot of interesting sentence that facilitator Phoon brought up.
he is a good speaker.
who indeeds knows how to handle a course starting at 9am.
i was pretty sleepy,
but he knows just how to handle the group.


now i know,
before your performance appraisal,
GET PREPARED!
i din know there's so much of things to prepare,
before being locked up with sister to get your appraisal.
ok! i'm seriously going to get more books,
to knowledge up myself with all these rules of lifes thingy.
it's really interesting.


something that brighten my day...
Fac. Phoon came and ask me,
'have you encounter people saying that you look very young?'
i was like, 'eh.. ya.'
i thought i've changed being worst,
after so much of working and stressing from work.
but well,
i shall thank my mom.
cause that's in the genes you know.
ahahahha...

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