CONGRATS TO ANNA MERCIER,
who survived through 10 meals without CHICKEN!!
and i'm so glad i did it.
well, i know it was quite a rubbish act,
but who cares?
at least i was able to endure and avoid..
(yes!! i did it!! boy, u did it too?)


so the 6-days course of ICA has come to an end.
exams in 3weeks time.
and there will be 30MCQs out of so many topics.
had a revision with Fazeedah yesterday.
and i hope it will be a not-so-tricky paper.
more studies coming up.
need to mug hard for this paper.
because i'm gonna be dealing with sicker patient.


and talking of which,
it's time to switch my mood back to work.
have not been working that often due to the course.
i would love the environment better,
if the NC don't find fault from me...
i'm praying hard.
all the best to me.

i am going to ban chicken for myself,
for the next 3 days.
it's 9 meals without chicken.
can i make it?
can i survive with just pork and seafood?
i'm challenging myself...


the reason for me banning myself from chicken,
because i had chicken rice for breakfast yesterday,
had chicken rice for lunch (i was left with no choice),
and for dinner i had sushi WITH black pepper spring chicken...
dinner was initiated by hubby's dad.
so how can i say 'NO'?


so with that,
i'm really feared of eating meat..
at least pork tasted different...


yesterday we went to IR.
since the new bridge( The Helix) opened on saturday.
and sinapore was real bored.
so we are targetting on new things that's opening.
we finally saw that beautiful bridge.
real NICCE!


walked through the bridge.
see how much IR has progress...
which i wanted to salute to construction workers.
and we actually walked almost 3km from esplanade,
to Sands Expo Conventional Hall,
till almost Lau Par Sat( raffles MRT).
it was really a long long walk.
we din go the short cut way.
but we really walked around 3/4 of the whole s'pore river.
my leg turned jelly,
and needed hubby to piggy back me.
uncle's clothes was totally wet through...
(like when you squeeze his clothes, you can physically see water coming out.)
i'm serious.


i really enjoyed yesterday.
the start of the day AND the end of it.
i end with lying at the back of lorry with hubby,
while the lorry travel through expressway...
and all we saw was stars...
loves...
:)
ENJOYED~!

there's a saying:
money matters ruins bondings.


i agree with that saying.
this comes in when you lent money to people whom you trust.
and when you tried to want it back,
you never get it return...


well,
it's always hard for me to stretch out my hands,
asking people for money.
whether borrowing or returning.
but when it comes to lending,
i will be generous.


it was harshed for me to ask for return,
and i guess i'm giving it up.
i really dislike begging back for what was mine.
i thought you will be automatic.
seems like what ever mentioned will ruin some friendship in between.
i know i have always been helpful to you.
but hope you understand why i'm doing this.
i guess you know me well enough.
there isn't a need for me to do all this...
i'm not asking for more,
but in future,
please return what you've borrowed.
don't get MIA-ed.


all i can say is:
有借有还，再借不难!

this morning waking up from my bed,
i suddenly has got this thigh joint pain...
every hyper extensive movements causes pain.
bring this pain to work,
i realised the more i walked,
the more painful it gets.


anyway i did two dressing today at work.
satisfied.
beautifully wrapped up.
i really love doing dressings.
anyway both are complicated dressings.
:)
glad about the outcome at work today.
at least i did something successful.
everything went smooth.
and i'm happy my night shift is back.
i can, once again, be loaded..
:)


weekends are off from work.
still planning on outing.
hope i won't be at home facing that ku-ku bro of mine...
i hatEEEEE staying at home dealing with him...
shall not waste my off days with him..
it's really WILL BE a waste.

so i came back to ward to start my first day of work.
reached workplace at 6.30am.
walked towards the changing room,
got myself dressed in scrub suit...
hmm.. oversized scrub suit.
expected.


then walked through that chilling ward,
i saw busy heads walking around furiously.
the next moment i checked by roster of the day.
and unluckily,
i was IN CHARGE.
back from course,
not knowing how the ward actually function,
and i'm posted being a role as an in charge in the early MORNING!!


after receiving reports,
i knew that one of my patient is passing soon.
and INDEED he passed on...
during my shift.
i should say i do have a memorable FIRST DAY in WARD 68 in my life.
i managed to settle everything and without no delays.
and of course with the help of sister phuah...
thanks to her help seriously.


i end work by 4.30pm.
without having meal breaks for the 12 hours of walking up and down non stop.
not event a drip of water went into my throat.
all i could say is,
my ward is really not ready to accept ill patient in sense of equipments.
most of my time this morning,
was calling other wards to borrow equipment whole morning!!!
and it really delays time.
and some part of the layout of the ward is really suck!!!
and i was disappointed with my colleague who wasn't understanding
and helpful enough to help me through...
well, sometimes it's just NOT YOUR DAY.
i was being challenged today.
but i WON the battle....
:)

it's been few days since i blogged.
sorry for not updating.
have been busy.
so after two days of ICA courses,
four more days to go.
received all the notes already.
and it's really stacking up.
need to get a ring file specially for those notes.


not forgetting exam in one month time.
and competency checklist to be completed.


i do have some kind of stress arising.
but i guess it had not surfaced.
sooner the stress level will be felt.
goodluck to me.


thurs back to work.
have not get to work since the first day of opening.
as i was at bestway for my course.
have not seen my roster.
have not nurse patient as well.
heard that there was 4admissions on first day.
i am excited to go back to ward,
and work like normal...




happy 29th to boy.
it was yesterday.
and it was a great date for us.
finally tasted that super spicy buffalo wings at seletar.
and saw the beautiful view of the reservoir and sea.
a short and sweet outing.
nice experience.
and i wanna go there again.
:)
thanks for the plan.


as for tomorrow,
IMM with thean and MJ.
we have been sticking on with each other for the past 3weeks.
good bonding.
good colleagues.
good buddies.
:)

sweats. bodyaches. tiredness.
feeling highness even after the concert.
and the recalling of the scenes from the concert,
are the post concert syndrome i will always experience...


however not this time round.


the rain at 4pm yesterday did not really affect the outdoor concert.
but there was a serious problem with the venue...


it was a promised that concert will last till midnight.
and they will continue singing even after clock stuck 12.
BUT at 11.28pm,
everything ended.


due to the population coming for concert(15000people),
there was a serious human jam.
event should start at 730pm.
but it dragged up till 8.45pm.
due to the congestion and that many people were still queuing to get into the stadium.
start late, end early...
:(


worst part is:
the stage is too small for the people on ground.
the layout was quite a bad one.
pricing for $168 is too much.
and afterall, i felt, FOR THE FIRST TIME,
this concert is not worthy...


and for the first time,
i was disappointed with the concert.
it was not as good as i expected.
not as good as what they mentioned.
not as good as the one in kaoshiong( taiwan).
the first concert i did not jump.
because i was standing on chair.
due to the wet grass we are standing...
and the first concert i took the LEAST photos of...
plainly because i couldn't capture much...
-_-"


but the PLUS part was:
fireworks!
and that HUGE transformer figure that makes many stunned.
erm.. that's all.
the rest of the content were the same as the two DNA concert held last year.
yup...


one word to describe: Disappointed.
hopefully there are news about what actually happen regarding the duration.
i guess it was due to complains.
afterall, it was an outdoor event,
and that there are flats a distance away from the stadium....

today is the concert..
TODAY IS THE CONCERT!!!
SUPER SUPER EXCITED.
once again,
it's time for mayday.
and with hubby around this time round...
yeah yeah!!!!
happy happy!!!!

have been occupying myself with labelling today.
have always wanted to help out.
seeing the ward sisters running up and down,
and seeing how DDN screwed them up,
i felt sorry for them.
and the more i dislike this DDN.
(DDN means deputy director of nursing.)


well hopefully with some help from us,
could lessen their load and hopefully we will be able to be ready,
to accept patient by monday.


so twelve people will be selected to attend ICA course.
trained to work in ICU.
and i was one of them.
as predicted,
i know i'm allocated to work in High Dependency.
and so am i consider lucky to be able to expose to something new again?
at least something challenging for me to learn.


i am at the biggest phase of learning,
and at the same time,
absorbing as much as i can...
there's quite a lot of infos inputting into that small brain of mine.
hopefully i'll be a competent nurse afterall...


shall start working hard...

have been having more girls-talk these few days.
and our topic lingers all about GUYS.
sometimes girls-talks are necessity,
but too much of it can becomes too affective.
and might spoil relationships.


and when this topic gets hotter,
i'm most afraid to hear:
"All guys are THE SAME!"


i had always believe YOU are different.
because it was all from experience.
but then again,
experiences or maybe warnings from seniors are never lied.
people who had been through more than i do.
people who seen it more than i do.
people who experienced it more than i do.
then i realised sometimes it's not about TRUST.


being able to be committed used to be my issue.
and seemed like my issue has moved on.
and i guess after the phase of being committed,
will be this phase i'm facing...


still figuring out...
need more girl-talk and OUR night talk....
:)

a date from ben yesterday.
he booked us one week in advanced.
and it was another awesome outing...
with ben, boy, weizun, jocelyn and yongjie...


kite flying at marina barrage.
well i've been there so often these 2 months.
and i actually saw ALICE yesterday!!!
had a good chat with her.
though just a while.


all of us couldn't stand the burning temperature,
and within an hour,
we left...
headed towards Parco Marina.
ok, quite boring in there...
and we had dinner at marina square.
mini steamboat at Mini HotPot.
the herbal soup is NICEEEE!!


and i couldn't believe how much the guys ate...
especially Ben.
i think there's a fat worm in his tummy.
he ate the most and doesn't feel full by the end of the meal.


went arcade and everyone doesn't have a great plan for more events,
and then we parted.
(anyway all of them, excluding ben, is coming to MAYDAY CONCERT as well..)
cooooool shit!!
for the first time,
i've got so many friends gg for the same concert as me...
x0x0x0...


('happy birthday to you... happy birthday to ben...')




boy and i went back to Marina Barrage after that.
time checked: 9.40pm.
the feeling was different.
there's BREEZE. not BURNING SUN anymore.
and both of us had a heart-to-heart chat under the moon and stars...
how nice...


when we were busy facing the society,
there were lesser time for communication.
and i'm glad we had it last night.
it was real awesome.
and i know our relationship is still as strong...
i need those talks all the time...
because only then can i, for a moment, realised the time had stopped moving.
it physically did not stop,
but subconsciously IT DID!!!


it was always towards the end of an outing i'd love the most...
i love night compared to bright mornings and noons..
the breeze at night is always a soothing therapy
that simply makes me think a lot, reflect a lot.
loves.
:)
i had a good sunday,
and as you've had promised..
you kept it.
not breaking it...
thanks boy...

as planned,
yvonne. MJ. sharon. Vaish. thian. buva.
outing today for all of us after knocking off from work at 12.
but buva and later sharon,
couldn't make it in the end...

headed to AMK hub.
had our lunch at the kopitiam and headed for shopping.
the outing was awesome...
so were the girls...
few photos taken.
still with MJ though...

not forgetting the movie we caught.
'Date Night'!!!
its freaking funny!
vaish and i were laughing at the top of our voice,
till we realised we were too loud.
but seriously it's very very funny and nice...
till a point i wished boy was there laughing and enjoying with me...

also, our favourite lines from the movie:

"Shut your vagina..."

it means shut your face...

and simply means shut your mouth...

with my salted popcorn and the gassy drinks,
the whole thing becomes super perfect...

more shopping after the movie.
and got what i was in need...

thanks to the girls.
great moments.
and i know that boredom has come to an end.
fun was arising...
i grinned my whole day out...
:))
loves.

so now all of us are divided into group A and B.
ward 68A are the negative rooms and accepting dirty cases,
and B group are the positive rooms and accepting clean cases.
i'm lazy explaining what's clean and dirty cases.
so anyway,
i belong to A side.
and whether i'll be working in High Dependency,
i guess my chance are high...
shall pray hard...
feeling happy and unhappy at the same time.
happy that i do not deal with VIPs in future.
because B side has a VIP room.
unhappy was about the NC who's in charge at my ward station...


though we were separated between A and B,
but i hope the bonding will still be as strong...
as strong as how we were in ward 11 and 12.


lockers are not allocated to us yet.
but i want no. 19.
19!!

next week,
office hours again.
worst part: we might be deployed again...
WHAT!?!?!??!
again!!
i would rather work on inventory than deployed to ICU to work....
comeon... argh...
things aren't going on our way...
how annoying...
anyway will be having AL on coming sat.
was allocated to work from 8-5.
but due to the concert,
i'm on leave...
as i said...
MAYDAY is my life...
:))

i seriously can't stand what happened at work yesterday.
well, it's just a short period out of that 8-9hrs of working today though.
i can't believe how sacarstic she was.
trying to please me till that extend?
i don't mind the actions,
but i mind the words.


maybe in someway this person had offended me.
but come-on,
i don't eat the type of tricks alright?
please be more polite next time.
thank you!


and looking at the speed of how the ward is getting,
i really dunno when we can start work.
nothing is moving, again.
the beds are there.
desktops are there.
but where's all the equipments?
where's all the requisites?
i seriously hope we can start work by the week after next.
i'm really dread to see what is left undone....
and yet nothing is moving!!

we often heard 'forgive and forget.'
but many a times can we really forget?


if one can forget about the incident,
it may means that it was not affective.
unless you really mind what really happened,
will you be able to think about forgiving.
and then forgetting about what had happened.
right?


how is it possible for one to forget about what had already happened,
when it once affected you so badly...
to what extend have you really forget about the matter?
what kind of thoughts will you have,
when one day you suddenly recalled about the incident again?
come to think about all this questions,
forgetting isn't an easy tasks...


if only memories can be picked to be erased,
how great will life be, isn't it?
till now,
i'm still figuring out...

life's getting more and more boring each day.
waking up at 6am.
work starts at 8am.
lectures and demos,
walking and chit chatting.
clock struck 5pm,
and everyone goes home...


nothing much you can do when we end work at 5.
not enough time for movies.
not enough time for shopping.
not enough time for dating even!!
how pathetic...
office hours do kills me badly...


i need fun..
i need outing.
i need more laughter.
to fill up this boredom right deep in me...


after yesterday,
i realised i need YOU to dote me more...
do you still remember how you used to dote me?
i need that equal treatment...
i felt stagnant.
somethings have to be moving!!
SOME THING HAS TO START MOVING~~!!!!!!!
life's bored!!

seen and walked ard the new ward today.
learnt about the needs to have an isolation ward in the organisation.
learnt more detailed about bacteria.
it's really interesting.
i knew how these bacteria are muitated,
and got resistant to antibiotic.
and learnt about how they grew in hospitals.


our formation is meant to end those growth.
and i foresee more things to catch up before i officially start working.


everyone is learning at this point of time.
and adapting.
i'm glad i'm once again a pioneer of something.
it feels great being the first badge.
because we get to set our own rules.



with so much changes in my working life,
sames goes to my real life.

went down to my uncle shop at petir last night,
to look for my gran.
my one and only gran.
the cutest chubby gran...










she doesn't seemed to be very happy last night.
or maybe, all these while.
i know she has got many worries in her mind that she couldn't let go.
and that really hurts me a lot.
it was hard for her to come this far.
and i expected her to be enjoying her life at this stage,
but i guess, she isn't.
i could see that sorrow in her eyes last night.
and the fact she told me she was bullied by ah gong makes me more upsetted.


i want her to be the happiest ah ma on earth now.
because i scared i might regret in the future.
i'm really scared.
at this time,
i understand the feeling now.
understand the feeling of losing..


she told me and sis if we had boyfriend.
and she wants to see them.
and get married...
i guess this is her wish.
her wish before anything could happen in future.
and i really want to grant her wish...
drinking tea in the ceremony...

that's just the right word to describe today's outing.


hao's family favourite chicken rice for br-unch.

proceeding on for our facial appointment.
where that irritating unbustable pimple was finally off my face.
like finally.


i was given a eyebrow trimming as well.
wanted it so badly and now it's done,
and it's NEAT!


went to town to catch movie but fullhouse.


WALKED to bugis.


WALKED to bras pasar.


then had our dinner- steamboat.


WALKED to raffles.


and LAUGH throughout the way back home.


it was really a nice great day.
indeed why it was called as 'Good Friday'.
i know that's not how the name comes about,
but it was really a pleasant day for both of us.
a GREAT day for US!


thanks love..
:)

FACIAL FACIAL FACIAL...
:))
booked my appointment at 1pm.
going with my beloved later.
and maybe movies later on...
what a nice day for date like this..
just the two of us,
during Good Friday..
today seems nice...
gonna go...
to find my beloved...
ciao!!

this is bungle.


"hi... i'm the playful one."



"this is swinger. sitting on me. swinger is my friend."

a last feeling here in cabin.


we guys went through a last round walking through ward 11/12.
and every room we pass,
we mentioned the patient whom we reminded of.
and seriously,
we guys been through a lot together.
maybe our patient here were more long-stayer,
we could name them all...
we missed the cabin.
we missed the patient.
we missed the memories.
we missed working here...



vaish and MJ.