had my presentation today. that module was said to be 'easy to fail' module. well.. our group just screwed. screwed up the whole presentation. we didnt talk abt the points needed. ms yong is helping us to salvage our marks and make us pass, if only possible. i'm totally off. i hate this kinda feeling. we work so hard for this module. we actually spent 1mth to complete. so much of effort. so much of time wasted. this is the result we are getting. sucks! what to do?
lifes like that. it's never always going smooth as you want it to. that's when you will start feeling so shit. it just so sucky! hai.. i dun really need to cry out. but more like screaming it out. but whatever. dear might be coming over to see me later. dunno when, dunno how. but i guess his existance might be able to cheer me up.
thanks alice. for the chocolate. for the 'sayang'. thanks dear. for the consolation. guys.. i need to chill.. really need to.
• •
29 November 2007
• my life is struggled.•
27 November 2007
i am experiencing role strain now!!! it's hard to cope it alone, but somehow this feeling is thrilling and challenging.
role strain within the family. role strain within workplace. role strain within my role as a student. role strain as a girlfriend.
Family: lately there's misunderstanding between my bro, mom and sis. well.. i'm again, the middleman. i need to clear up the gap in between them and so i can lead a peaceful life at home. sis and bro having cold war. den my sis keep saying bad things abt my bro in front of my mom. my mom felt so bad. mom and bro have been pretty unhappy due to that irritating guy who shdnt be our house. bro felt comfortable telling me his problems and thoughts. mom found it comfortable telling me abt her thoughts abt sis and bro. and my sis? she can only find me to talk abt mom. so? i'm in serious role strain.
Workplace: i have lead a quiet life after the wilson incident. this is something really pleasant. but everyone have been asking me why why why... quite annoying at times. but it's not really affecting me much.
Student: as a student, i ought to know my work well. but right now, i'm just short of time and determination to work on any harder. i found myself less and less interested in studies. i feel like i wanna go out to work. yet, in the deepest me, i'm not giving up nursing. not even a thought of it. i guess i'm just too tired and too tied up with school exam, projects and the necessary research and revision needed to be done. sometimes a bit accumumlates to become a big pile. and i guess that's why i'm not in right mood to study.
Relationship: sometimes i have tots of why i will end up having a relationship. i had this flash of tot last night. i am attached. i am in love. but before i met him, i am totally giving up on looking for a boyfriend. its like.. just right before i know him, i had a promised. not to get boyfriend. concentrate on school work and earning money. but i guess, wei hao.. ( if u r reading this), u got the key to my heart. i actually broke my own promise and started with you. things are happening fast and soon. i kinda wanna slow things down a little. but i never regret this choice i've made. pls dun make me feel regret too. because i have made a big choice here of breaking my own promise and be with you. you dare hurt me, you die ah! cause my frens won't let u off de. wahahaha.. ok la.. i know you will treasure me de. hees...
wei hao, rmb this:
this gal here have a little attitude problem at times. she bites when she's down. she crys when she's moody. she just need a simple yet exciting relationship to spice up her life and live everyday like brand new. she needs some pampering too. haha.. i'm not asking for much, just treat her well, and she'll be appreciative and lovely to you.. :))
role strain within the family. role strain within workplace. role strain within my role as a student. role strain as a girlfriend.
Family: lately there's misunderstanding between my bro, mom and sis. well.. i'm again, the middleman. i need to clear up the gap in between them and so i can lead a peaceful life at home. sis and bro having cold war. den my sis keep saying bad things abt my bro in front of my mom. my mom felt so bad. mom and bro have been pretty unhappy due to that irritating guy who shdnt be our house. bro felt comfortable telling me his problems and thoughts. mom found it comfortable telling me abt her thoughts abt sis and bro. and my sis? she can only find me to talk abt mom. so? i'm in serious role strain.
Workplace: i have lead a quiet life after the wilson incident. this is something really pleasant. but everyone have been asking me why why why... quite annoying at times. but it's not really affecting me much.
Student: as a student, i ought to know my work well. but right now, i'm just short of time and determination to work on any harder. i found myself less and less interested in studies. i feel like i wanna go out to work. yet, in the deepest me, i'm not giving up nursing. not even a thought of it. i guess i'm just too tired and too tied up with school exam, projects and the necessary research and revision needed to be done. sometimes a bit accumumlates to become a big pile. and i guess that's why i'm not in right mood to study.
Relationship: sometimes i have tots of why i will end up having a relationship. i had this flash of tot last night. i am attached. i am in love. but before i met him, i am totally giving up on looking for a boyfriend. its like.. just right before i know him, i had a promised. not to get boyfriend. concentrate on school work and earning money. but i guess, wei hao.. ( if u r reading this), u got the key to my heart. i actually broke my own promise and started with you. things are happening fast and soon. i kinda wanna slow things down a little. but i never regret this choice i've made. pls dun make me feel regret too. because i have made a big choice here of breaking my own promise and be with you. you dare hurt me, you die ah! cause my frens won't let u off de. wahahaha.. ok la.. i know you will treasure me de. hees...
wei hao, rmb this:
this gal here have a little attitude problem at times. she bites when she's down. she crys when she's moody. she just need a simple yet exciting relationship to spice up her life and live everyday like brand new. she needs some pampering too. haha.. i'm not asking for much, just treat her well, and she'll be appreciative and lovely to you.. :))
• •
26 November 2007
it's over!!! practical skills is done! i passed!!! smoothly.
but poor thing alice.. she failed. she kena this irritating lecturer that keep pointing her and ask her silly questions. den she has to re-take. so ass hole.. alice, cheer up ok? i really feel sad for you. cause i understand the feeling of retaking. you know your skills but the lecturer just dun have the skills as being a lecturer.
dun worry alice.. let's put this teacher in our "打小人" list ok... afterall , your sis will have a campanion le.. wahahaha... *smiles*
anyway,these days din really have the time to meet up with my boy. feel like i always neglected him. but i'm very happy that he really understands it. i really hope after this exam period, we can meet up more often. there are a lot of places i want you to bring me go.
i'm going to plan our outing trip soon. hahaha... next movie up... 'Enchanted'. that's a MUST watch movie for us. shd be catching the moie very soon le.
but poor thing alice.. she failed. she kena this irritating lecturer that keep pointing her and ask her silly questions. den she has to re-take. so ass hole.. alice, cheer up ok? i really feel sad for you. cause i understand the feeling of retaking. you know your skills but the lecturer just dun have the skills as being a lecturer.
dun worry alice.. let's put this teacher in our "打小人" list ok... afterall , your sis will have a campanion le.. wahahaha... *smiles*
anyway,these days din really have the time to meet up with my boy. feel like i always neglected him. but i'm very happy that he really understands it. i really hope after this exam period, we can meet up more often. there are a lot of places i want you to bring me go.
i'm going to plan our outing trip soon. hahaha... next movie up... 'Enchanted'. that's a MUST watch movie for us. shd be catching the moie very soon le.
• •
23 November 2007
hey guys... so long neh blog.. sooo busy lately...
well.. firstly i shall announced that i'm finally attached. erm... quite deeply in love. and ya.. it's been so long i have a feeling like this before. anyway.. we guys are attached on the 19th. not 22nd. due to some stupid lame reason. hahaha..
ytd we went out for our 4th date. erm.. i made a card and got him his collection belt. when he saw the effort i made, he was so touched. haha.. can see that sorrowful face of him.. hahaha... so cute. then we went for movie. we catched 'the bee movie'. ermm.. not as nice as i tot. i still prefer ratatouille. oh ya.. we went shaw. and the theatre was like super run down la. aiyo.. i promised i'm not going to step in to the theatre ever again although i'm working there. or unless i get into lido classic. if not... no more movie in shaw.. ewww!!!
we went to meet xiao wei after that. then went for dinner. just ytd, i met 3 of my friends. saw zhi ling at wisma. seok har at her pedicure shop and karen at cine. haha..
well.. this sat i'm going to work the whole day at lido.. going to be a long tiring day for me. but what to do? i need to earn money.
well.. firstly i shall announced that i'm finally attached. erm... quite deeply in love. and ya.. it's been so long i have a feeling like this before. anyway.. we guys are attached on the 19th. not 22nd. due to some stupid lame reason. hahaha..
ytd we went out for our 4th date. erm.. i made a card and got him his collection belt. when he saw the effort i made, he was so touched. haha.. can see that sorrowful face of him.. hahaha... so cute. then we went for movie. we catched 'the bee movie'. ermm.. not as nice as i tot. i still prefer ratatouille. oh ya.. we went shaw. and the theatre was like super run down la. aiyo.. i promised i'm not going to step in to the theatre ever again although i'm working there. or unless i get into lido classic. if not... no more movie in shaw.. ewww!!!
we went to meet xiao wei after that. then went for dinner. just ytd, i met 3 of my friends. saw zhi ling at wisma. seok har at her pedicure shop and karen at cine. haha..
well.. this sat i'm going to work the whole day at lido.. going to be a long tiring day for me. but what to do? i need to earn money.
• •
19 November 2007
it's 19nov.. 2more days to my clinical theory. ass...!!! i needa buck up on studies. this sem have been busy with working till i din have time to study. i must buck up now if not my studies sure will be affected. well.. this sem will be a tough sem for many of us. hope all of us will be able to struggle thru.
it's also 2more days to my last day of being single.. my mom, my sis, my frens have all agreed on this guy here. i can finally put down all burden and feel free and no longer need to have any hidding relationships. it's like FINALLY.. sigh.. after so long..
anyway, i'm planning something big on that day. hope everything will goes according to plans. hope he'll like the effort i spent. hahaha..
it's also 2more days to my last day of being single.. my mom, my sis, my frens have all agreed on this guy here. i can finally put down all burden and feel free and no longer need to have any hidding relationships. it's like FINALLY.. sigh.. after so long..
anyway, i'm planning something big on that day. hope everything will goes according to plans. hope he'll like the effort i spent. hahaha..
• •
17 November 2007
some thoughts of mine...
i mention that i dun want a boyfriend. i mention that i enjoy my single life. i mention i am not ready for relationship. i mention i want to work and study.
now all these.. no meaning..
it just happen naturally. he just appears.. he show me how life should really lead. he appears when my life is dull and he brightens it. it's just this boy here that just have the right key to my heart.
i need to convince everyone. my good buddy around me. my mom. my sis. that.. he is someone whom i can still trust. soomeone i wanna rely on. someone who will protect me. who will been through thick and thin in lifes. he may not be perfect, but he's just what i wanted. yes.. i am into something called 'love'. but that's not all between us.
lately, i have been successful in convincing my mom and sis. i was shocked when my sis says that he's not bad when she saw him. phew...!
it's been so long since i last had a bf. it's a new start to me.
something is to happen on the 22nd of nov.
i have make it a day that is specially for you, my boy. your sweetheart is going to plan something big, just for you.. be patience ok??? wait till the 22nd, and sweetheart belongs to the boy...
i mention that i dun want a boyfriend. i mention that i enjoy my single life. i mention i am not ready for relationship. i mention i want to work and study.
now all these.. no meaning..
it just happen naturally. he just appears.. he show me how life should really lead. he appears when my life is dull and he brightens it. it's just this boy here that just have the right key to my heart.
i need to convince everyone. my good buddy around me. my mom. my sis. that.. he is someone whom i can still trust. soomeone i wanna rely on. someone who will protect me. who will been through thick and thin in lifes. he may not be perfect, but he's just what i wanted. yes.. i am into something called 'love'. but that's not all between us.
lately, i have been successful in convincing my mom and sis. i was shocked when my sis says that he's not bad when she saw him. phew...!
it's been so long since i last had a bf. it's a new start to me.
something is to happen on the 22nd of nov.
i have make it a day that is specially for you, my boy. your sweetheart is going to plan something big, just for you.. be patience ok??? wait till the 22nd, and sweetheart belongs to the boy...
• •
i have finally get rid of wilson.. gosh.. it's really finally. his moves just din touched me but makes me wanna shunned him further.
today at work, wilson sms me saying that he will be coming down to fetch me home. i was thinking that i can walk on my own and no need your accompany. i just feel so controlled by him. so irritating. i went to tell wei hao abt it. and this boy boy here is coming to rescue me!! buahaha.. here goes..
boy boy went to my workplace to look for me... brought lunch for me. i was too busy the moment he reached. but he still waited till my break time comes. during break time, my sis was with us as well.. i told him what happens. he turn to his phone and sms wilson. he actually tell him to stop bugging at me. and wilson was blurred on who's that. andhe told him that, 'i am anna's bf'. buahahahaha... wilson replied with 'sorry, i din know she got a bf'.
wahahaha.. i finally get rid of wilson le.. FINALLY. it's like my sis, mom and i have been feeling so pissed on what wilson had done and stuff. rejected him yet he still dun wanna give up. and now it's the ending. yet starting between me and wei hao.
with what had happened, my sis and my mom kinda feel that wei hao is someone who can really take care of me. i feel that he is someone i can really rely on. ytd, i went to temple with alice and wei hao.. i wanna ask qns regarding my family stuff, but i couldn't. so i turn to ask abt wei hao. the results turn out to be positive. it says that 'benefactor has appear. stop considering and stuff. the spring blossom is bloom... ...' wahahaha..
today at work, wilson sms me saying that he will be coming down to fetch me home. i was thinking that i can walk on my own and no need your accompany. i just feel so controlled by him. so irritating. i went to tell wei hao abt it. and this boy boy here is coming to rescue me!! buahaha.. here goes..
boy boy went to my workplace to look for me... brought lunch for me. i was too busy the moment he reached. but he still waited till my break time comes. during break time, my sis was with us as well.. i told him what happens. he turn to his phone and sms wilson. he actually tell him to stop bugging at me. and wilson was blurred on who's that. andhe told him that, 'i am anna's bf'. buahahahaha... wilson replied with 'sorry, i din know she got a bf'.
wahahaha.. i finally get rid of wilson le.. FINALLY. it's like my sis, mom and i have been feeling so pissed on what wilson had done and stuff. rejected him yet he still dun wanna give up. and now it's the ending. yet starting between me and wei hao.
with what had happened, my sis and my mom kinda feel that wei hao is someone who can really take care of me. i feel that he is someone i can really rely on. ytd, i went to temple with alice and wei hao.. i wanna ask qns regarding my family stuff, but i couldn't. so i turn to ask abt wei hao. the results turn out to be positive. it says that 'benefactor has appear. stop considering and stuff. the spring blossom is bloom... ...' wahahaha..
• •
15 November 2007
had work ytd.. wilson came all the way down to cck to visit me at work. well.. it's very nice of him to come all the way down. i appreciate the effort. but 1 thing i was not very happy was that, he still insist of wooing me, after i rejected him. even when i told him that some other guy is after me, he still din give up and wanna work even harder.
well.. i can only say that he really got no chance. firstly because my mom knew abt the incident abt him spreading the stupid rumors. secondly, i prefer wei hao than him. and that the things you do to woo me is like sooo... childish.. can't stand it. even my mom cant tahan. can you imagine he drew a cartoon thingy and wrote there-- anna, i love you'? it's like what the hell la.. the 3 words can be easily say to any girls you like like that. it's not that i'm interested in him or what. and it's obvious i'm treating him as friends ONLY. but he just treat me like i'm already his gf.. that makes me wanna ignore him and shunned away from him lor.. dots.. thirdly, he is just not my type.. though he's a leo. too bad.. he dun behave like one..
but anyway, had phone calls with wei hao ytd again. well.. guess we both know how we feels towards each other. anna is abt to announced attached soon ba.. we share many things alike. and got plenty topics to talk on. interest are mostly the same. thinking are some sort ok.. everything have been going smooth.
he seems nice to me. very caring. very thoughtful. but just hope that's not the starting only.. i'll make everyone around me accept him. especially my mom.. and sis. :)
well.. i can only say that he really got no chance. firstly because my mom knew abt the incident abt him spreading the stupid rumors. secondly, i prefer wei hao than him. and that the things you do to woo me is like sooo... childish.. can't stand it. even my mom cant tahan. can you imagine he drew a cartoon thingy and wrote there-- anna, i love you'? it's like what the hell la.. the 3 words can be easily say to any girls you like like that. it's not that i'm interested in him or what. and it's obvious i'm treating him as friends ONLY. but he just treat me like i'm already his gf.. that makes me wanna ignore him and shunned away from him lor.. dots.. thirdly, he is just not my type.. though he's a leo. too bad.. he dun behave like one..
but anyway, had phone calls with wei hao ytd again. well.. guess we both know how we feels towards each other. anna is abt to announced attached soon ba.. we share many things alike. and got plenty topics to talk on. interest are mostly the same. thinking are some sort ok.. everything have been going smooth.
he seems nice to me. very caring. very thoughtful. but just hope that's not the starting only.. i'll make everyone around me accept him. especially my mom.. and sis. :)
• our first date-- planned•
14 November 2007
the happening night.. our 1st date..
date? haha.. was having a last min call-out to shopping by wei hao. he wanna go shop for clothes and stuff.. and before i continue my reporting, you can know that he's a big vain guy.. seriously.. very vain.. here goes..
met him at around 5pm ytd at yck mrt. i was with alice. so alice knows how he looks like too. well.. the first time i see him dress up( was actually my 2nd time seeing this guy). well.. alice leave us at amk station. and havoc(s) begins.
we went orchard. far east. jalan jalan. went to some of his favourite shops. den walk around. den i was quite starving so we went to eat. and guess what i had for dinner? baby abalone, scallop, dessert and some fried stuff. and the price is shockingly cheap. ever eat abalone and scallop for 5bucks? well.. that place is really an eye opener for me.
next stop at paragon. wanna help alice buy her rubiks cube. since anny say it's a waste of money, i shall help her buy. at toyrus, we were playing like small kids. haha.. we saw this little mermaid joystick game. it's there for kids to play. he went to play.. turn the joystick like nobody business and the mermaid "knock" her head against the rock and die. that scene made us laugh like crazy. when we were to go out of paragon, we passby a construction site, we realised someone was stuck inside, so weihao went to unlock. INDEED.. there's 2 men stuck inside. omg... who wanna prank them ah.. lock them inside.. hahaha.. then e 2guys thank him. gosh.. so funny can.
after more walking, shopping and gaming at arcade, here's the fun part of the day..
we wanna go 'the cathay'. we passby this building of houses where there's a long stretch of uphill stairs. we were both so havoc that we went to climb the stairs. haha.. it's like i'm half way thru and i'm breathless alr. but we still make our way up. walk thru the dark streets. the spiral carpark and we finally make our way to THE CATHAY. haha.. FON.. but yet fun and havoc.
all the playing, havoc-ing, laughing, fish feeding at cathay, stairs climbing, blah blah.. are just too fun. i was just quite quiet all the while as i was quite tired and shagged. yet it's an enjoyable and a entertaining day for me. *happiness*
date? haha.. was having a last min call-out to shopping by wei hao. he wanna go shop for clothes and stuff.. and before i continue my reporting, you can know that he's a big vain guy.. seriously.. very vain.. here goes..
met him at around 5pm ytd at yck mrt. i was with alice. so alice knows how he looks like too. well.. the first time i see him dress up( was actually my 2nd time seeing this guy). well.. alice leave us at amk station. and havoc(s) begins.
we went orchard. far east. jalan jalan. went to some of his favourite shops. den walk around. den i was quite starving so we went to eat. and guess what i had for dinner? baby abalone, scallop, dessert and some fried stuff. and the price is shockingly cheap. ever eat abalone and scallop for 5bucks? well.. that place is really an eye opener for me.
next stop at paragon. wanna help alice buy her rubiks cube. since anny say it's a waste of money, i shall help her buy. at toyrus, we were playing like small kids. haha.. we saw this little mermaid joystick game. it's there for kids to play. he went to play.. turn the joystick like nobody business and the mermaid "knock" her head against the rock and die. that scene made us laugh like crazy. when we were to go out of paragon, we passby a construction site, we realised someone was stuck inside, so weihao went to unlock. INDEED.. there's 2 men stuck inside. omg... who wanna prank them ah.. lock them inside.. hahaha.. then e 2guys thank him. gosh.. so funny can.
after more walking, shopping and gaming at arcade, here's the fun part of the day..
we wanna go 'the cathay'. we passby this building of houses where there's a long stretch of uphill stairs. we were both so havoc that we went to climb the stairs. haha.. it's like i'm half way thru and i'm breathless alr. but we still make our way up. walk thru the dark streets. the spiral carpark and we finally make our way to THE CATHAY. haha.. FON.. but yet fun and havoc.
all the playing, havoc-ing, laughing, fish feeding at cathay, stairs climbing, blah blah.. are just too fun. i was just quite quiet all the while as i was quite tired and shagged. yet it's an enjoyable and a entertaining day for me. *happiness*
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this is a monkey that i drew myself... ermm.. it might not look quite like a monkey. but it's some effort i done for myself to cheer myself up..
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13 November 2007
yeah! i finally got a new appliances at home for me to play with lor.. the oven!! it's sent to our house ytd.. yeah.. cookies, cakes, muffins... you name it, i'll cook it. i'm gonna try my latest recipe soon. buahaha... cookies!! here i come!! mum mum...!!!
• •
ok im here again to report abt what happen lately.. well.. i shd say that i'm now stuck in between two guys. i was eagerly looking for a leo one mth ago. and i get to know one. but too bad, he's kinda not good enough for me that i seriously treating him as a friend that i meet at work. after the chalet, i get to know another guy again. this time a pisces. i find him much better than the leo guy.
my point here is that, i'm really happy that i can get to know more ppl. i shd say after having this job as lido- shaw, i've made a lot of friends. my social-circle is widen!! buahaha.. that's what i wanted.
lately have been some arguements with my mom regarding who i shd treat as colleague and who shd i treat as real 'friends'. to me, friends are anyone whom i know and knows me. and colleague are ppl whom we only talk abt work.. that's my definition. but my mom, total different thinking. she ask me not to treat everyone you know like your friends. they will betray you and blah blah blah.. what the.. i'm old enough to think for myself.. so pissed at times. why can't i just stick to my own thinking. ya? haiya.. i got different theory from you and sis lor.. dots..
my point here is that, i'm really happy that i can get to know more ppl. i shd say after having this job as lido- shaw, i've made a lot of friends. my social-circle is widen!! buahaha.. that's what i wanted.
lately have been some arguements with my mom regarding who i shd treat as colleague and who shd i treat as real 'friends'. to me, friends are anyone whom i know and knows me. and colleague are ppl whom we only talk abt work.. that's my definition. but my mom, total different thinking. she ask me not to treat everyone you know like your friends. they will betray you and blah blah blah.. what the.. i'm old enough to think for myself.. so pissed at times. why can't i just stick to my own thinking. ya? haiya.. i got different theory from you and sis lor.. dots..
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11 November 2007
ytd... the fun part..
was at chalet ytd.. well.. i was involved in the cakes smashing and smearing. why am i the victim? shd disturb the birthday boy what.. den wei hao ended up smashing cake at me, so i took revenge. throw cake and kena his shirt. he later smeared me with more of it. got so "pissed" and grab a cup of water and pour from down his head.. buahaha.. full of nonsense and crap..
today... the fucked up part.
was still feeling alright until 10am this morning. my sis went to tell my mom abt me getting the contact lens. told her not to 'bao dou' liao. she still go tell my mum. fuck eh! now my mom scold me double for lying to her and hiding from her. if right at the first place you allow me, do you think i needa hide. haiya.. fucked up.
they are controlling too much. why cant i make my own choice of making friends. i said many many many times le.. he and i.. friends only. stop controlling me in doing what i wanna do. i said many times that i know what i'm doing. the more they control, the more i wanna do things till they cant tahan of me and let me off. i just cant stand the way they put their style of thinking into mine. my theory is different from you guys lor. stop it can or not.
now he and i might not be able to be friends. all cos by my sis. i just cant trust her. i feel that she is planning all the things behing me, alvin, and wilson. she makes me cant trust her. i dunno what to do.. im here writing out shows how much i'm concerned and distrupted by what's happening.
whatever guy friends i'm knowing now, i'm seriously wanna be friends. i didn't want to talk abt the word call 'love' because i'm not ready. i need someone whom i can trust before feeling safe to fall in further. who understands me? guess only anna huang knows!!
was at chalet ytd.. well.. i was involved in the cakes smashing and smearing. why am i the victim? shd disturb the birthday boy what.. den wei hao ended up smashing cake at me, so i took revenge. throw cake and kena his shirt. he later smeared me with more of it. got so "pissed" and grab a cup of water and pour from down his head.. buahaha.. full of nonsense and crap..
today... the fucked up part.
was still feeling alright until 10am this morning. my sis went to tell my mom abt me getting the contact lens. told her not to 'bao dou' liao. she still go tell my mum. fuck eh! now my mom scold me double for lying to her and hiding from her. if right at the first place you allow me, do you think i needa hide. haiya.. fucked up.
they are controlling too much. why cant i make my own choice of making friends. i said many many many times le.. he and i.. friends only. stop controlling me in doing what i wanna do. i said many times that i know what i'm doing. the more they control, the more i wanna do things till they cant tahan of me and let me off. i just cant stand the way they put their style of thinking into mine. my theory is different from you guys lor. stop it can or not.
now he and i might not be able to be friends. all cos by my sis. i just cant trust her. i feel that she is planning all the things behing me, alvin, and wilson. she makes me cant trust her. i dunno what to do.. im here writing out shows how much i'm concerned and distrupted by what's happening.
whatever guy friends i'm knowing now, i'm seriously wanna be friends. i didn't want to talk abt the word call 'love' because i'm not ready. i need someone whom i can trust before feeling safe to fall in further. who understands me? guess only anna huang knows!!
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10 November 2007
life can never be perfect. well.. one moment you were with your lover.. next moment, you can be quarreling with him. or maybe you realised that you are actually the 3rd party. life is always very unexpectedly.. we always meet obstacles in whatever we do.. just like in life. we can never had a smooth journey-- only depends how you see it.
this morning, alice just met an obstacles. well.. i have a lot of tots on that.. having a relationship when your close ppl around dun agree on, it's something very heartbroken. worse come to worst, they force you to break up. i always faced this kind of things. but what to do? they always says,' it's all for your own good. we dun want you to get cheated.. and blah blah blah..' but well.. this is not effective for me and alice.
anyway, alice.. how long can you keep this secret? it's hard for the both of you. but seems like this is the only thing you guys can do. i know how you feel and i really feel for you. have to worry if your parents will like him in the future, and stuff.. well.. that's is why i say i'm not ready for a steady love relationship. and for my character? i still wanna play. i dun wanna get settle down yet. it's just not me.
my sis told me this ytd.. no matter how long you have been thru in a relationship before the age of 25, will never last till marriage. becoz by the age of 25, most of our thinking will start to change and your opinion on guys will soon change as well.. so? ya.. no point putting so much effort on love man.. (this is just my thinking).. whatever it is, i'm just still playful.. yet i know what i'm doing.. buahahaha...
this morning, alice just met an obstacles. well.. i have a lot of tots on that.. having a relationship when your close ppl around dun agree on, it's something very heartbroken. worse come to worst, they force you to break up. i always faced this kind of things. but what to do? they always says,' it's all for your own good. we dun want you to get cheated.. and blah blah blah..' but well.. this is not effective for me and alice.
anyway, alice.. how long can you keep this secret? it's hard for the both of you. but seems like this is the only thing you guys can do. i know how you feel and i really feel for you. have to worry if your parents will like him in the future, and stuff.. well.. that's is why i say i'm not ready for a steady love relationship. and for my character? i still wanna play. i dun wanna get settle down yet. it's just not me.
my sis told me this ytd.. no matter how long you have been thru in a relationship before the age of 25, will never last till marriage. becoz by the age of 25, most of our thinking will start to change and your opinion on guys will soon change as well.. so? ya.. no point putting so much effort on love man.. (this is just my thinking).. whatever it is, i'm just still playful.. yet i know what i'm doing.. buahahaha...
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woot.. i'm at dwntown east now.. yuppy.. well.. it's xiaowei boyfriend's birthday and they had chalet here.. and so i'm here.well.. i just reached ans was shocked by the ppl here.. haha.. so.. .. havoc ah... his friends. haha.. well.. he is 21st le.. so i guess he shd take care of xiaowei and not bully her again.. k quite boring here. guess more havoc tonight.. hee..
anyway, today fifi invited us to her house as well.. but too bad subha went to celebrate her deepavali alr.. so i din go fifi house.. it's been so long i went her house to visit her mom her sis and that cute lil shabanu.. haha.. i miss shabanu.. guess she's alr pri 2 now.. hahaa..
anyway, today fifi invited us to her house as well.. but too bad subha went to celebrate her deepavali alr.. so i din go fifi house.. it's been so long i went her house to visit her mom her sis and that cute lil shabanu.. haha.. i miss shabanu.. guess she's alr pri 2 now.. hahaa..
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06 November 2007
it's my mom birthday!! well.. my sis and i had plan on treating her for body massage. since she has been so busy doing chores. we shall pamper her with good stuff.. after the body is relaxed, we shall go eat good food. we plan to go eat at cafe cartel..
we went to BPP. went to book a place for the massage. then go shopping. i got myself a mascara, new tees, and shoes. my sis got tees and also eyeliner. my mom.. bought me a pair of earring with A on it. that's my first birthday present!! early huh.. haha.. anyway, it's very nice and cute. and i shall wear that on my birthday.
we saw this oven that is on offer. it's damn cheap yet looks strong and lasting. it's only$199. our kitchen is in need of oven.. so.. i guess my mom's heart is touched and the hand is itchy on buying. we will bring that home soon. the offer is till sunday. wee...!! yeah.. with oven, i can start making my new recipe and always cook lotsa COOKIES!!! muahahaha.. *salivation* i want that oven!
we went to BPP. went to book a place for the massage. then go shopping. i got myself a mascara, new tees, and shoes. my sis got tees and also eyeliner. my mom.. bought me a pair of earring with A on it. that's my first birthday present!! early huh.. haha.. anyway, it's very nice and cute. and i shall wear that on my birthday.
we saw this oven that is on offer. it's damn cheap yet looks strong and lasting. it's only$199. our kitchen is in need of oven.. so.. i guess my mom's heart is touched and the hand is itchy on buying. we will bring that home soon. the offer is till sunday. wee...!! yeah.. with oven, i can start making my new recipe and always cook lotsa COOKIES!!! muahahaha.. *salivation* i want that oven!
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05 November 2007
for friends who really concern abt me.. i seriously think that i dun wanna get a bf now. i dun think i wanna face any relationship thingy again. it's so lame. i believe it's fated for love. so if it's not you time, you won't find someone good. so what if you rush? you will never get anyone that is good. i prefer to let fate do the opening of my life of love. i dun wanna get hurt or fall into any risky traps.
so what if all the friends around me are attached with boyfriends? i wanna be an individual here, being different. i dun think i can even commit with the status i am facing now.. with work, studies, family prob.. that's enough.. i dun want something call 'problem with boyfriend' to appear in my mind now. so? dun ask me to find boyfriend! and stop boosting abt how you and ur boyfriend do sweet sweet stuff.. so BTH!! but it's interesting to know though. haha( i'm kay-poh). well.. whatever it is.. not looking for boyfriend at the moment. i wanna some peace and distance with guys. i mean distance in the sense of not any closer than friends. so ya..
so what if all the friends around me are attached with boyfriends? i wanna be an individual here, being different. i dun think i can even commit with the status i am facing now.. with work, studies, family prob.. that's enough.. i dun want something call 'problem with boyfriend' to appear in my mind now. so? dun ask me to find boyfriend! and stop boosting abt how you and ur boyfriend do sweet sweet stuff.. so BTH!! but it's interesting to know though. haha( i'm kay-poh). well.. whatever it is.. not looking for boyfriend at the moment. i wanna some peace and distance with guys. i mean distance in the sense of not any closer than friends. so ya..
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02 November 2007
school is really getting more and more stress. what you say is right.. i shd not tire myself out. i need to take care of my health especially at this period of time. i need plan my revision schedule properly.. less tv for me. less wasting time on me. i must make use of every min. yet not burning myself up. lifes getting stress'er' and stress'er' for me now.. *siansation*
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i am choosing to escape what's happening.
i hate making a fake decision.
i know what i'm doing..
my lifes is in my hands.
everything is plan and fated to happen.
it's just it. what more do you expect.
while escaping, i'm still walking every steps. watching where life's going.
hoping i dun fall in traps.
whether i'm in the right route? only goddess knows.
i'm still in the process of knowing you.
i'm gonna take my time.
whether you are truthful or not, it's yet to be find out.
guys, you shd know who i'm refering to.
pls guide me along this path of route.
passby and concern bout me.
i need some talking out of my deepest heart to my dearest buddies.
can you stretch out your listening ear to me?
just sometime will do..
listen to me.. my thoughts.. it need some kind of freedom now!
~emo anna~
i hate making a fake decision.
i know what i'm doing..
my lifes is in my hands.
everything is plan and fated to happen.
it's just it. what more do you expect.
while escaping, i'm still walking every steps. watching where life's going.
hoping i dun fall in traps.
whether i'm in the right route? only goddess knows.
i'm still in the process of knowing you.
i'm gonna take my time.
whether you are truthful or not, it's yet to be find out.
guys, you shd know who i'm refering to.
pls guide me along this path of route.
passby and concern bout me.
i need some talking out of my deepest heart to my dearest buddies.
can you stretch out your listening ear to me?
just sometime will do..
listen to me.. my thoughts.. it need some kind of freedom now!
~emo anna~
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went to watch 'hunting and gathering' with sis at lido ytd.. omg.. that french movie is nice.. the story is not draggy. straight to the point. sweet and happy ending. haven been watching such a smooth movie before. it's those smooth going type. no climax no solemnity or anything.. just a sweet short romantic movie, i shall say.
went to visit the guys at work. they are still FON( full of nonsense).. keep making fun of me and that alvin.. wth.. crazy ppl(s). anyway, after the show, we went shopping. WE HAD OUR PAY!!! so we went for shopping.. hahahas.. i finally got myself a wedges. buahaha.. *excitement*
well... mommy birthday coming in 4 days time. fast fast... sis and i are planning something big for her.. that day must wear nice nice!! haha.. (when is my turn? guess it's soon...)
went to visit the guys at work. they are still FON( full of nonsense).. keep making fun of me and that alvin.. wth.. crazy ppl(s). anyway, after the show, we went shopping. WE HAD OUR PAY!!! so we went for shopping.. hahahas.. i finally got myself a wedges. buahaha.. *excitement*
well... mommy birthday coming in 4 days time. fast fast... sis and i are planning something big for her.. that day must wear nice nice!! haha.. (when is my turn? guess it's soon...)
