ytd was another celebration of 21st birthday.
Yong Jie's birthday.
well, it was a 12hrs planning of activities.
and all thanks to michelle and benjamin.
i fully enjoyed my day-- my off day.


we start of with 'mind cafe' at tampines safra.
ok, that place is so farrrrrr for me.
but i manage to be there,
only 15mins late.
then we proceed to movie at tampines mall-- Transformer2.
woah... i love it...
so trailing. so jaw-drops.
but the duration makes my butt numb... -_-

with bowling at ECP,
and arcade at ECP too.
and then the final surprises at marina square- MOF.
michelle invited 21 friends of his,
as a celebration of his 21st birthday.
what a good idea.
and anyway thanks to wei zun's driving,
we reached our destination in time,
and things went smoothly according to plans.

it was a good gathering for us.
and a fun celebration that we did during that 12hrs..
i enjoyed to the max.
and once again,
happy birthday to yong jie...
have an everlasting love with michelle ba... :))

-photos will be up, guaranteed-

my left arm is feeling-less.
it's numb.
it's painFUL...


i had two pokes today.
my hep B test is due today.
went to the lab to took one tube of blood.
hope the test shows that i've enough hep B immunized in me.
cause i just hate needles...


then i went to staff clinic.
got my flu jab as well.
again, needle.
and this time round, the needle is more BIG.
that means MORE pain....


omgodess...
it's really...
when i reach home,
took out the plaster,
my arm got a small bruise.. -_-"
everytime like this...


hope this time round the pain is not that 'lasting'
as the hep B jab that time...



i hate needles.
i hate needles.
i hate needles.
i hate needles.

ytd at work was surprisingly busy.
had only 6patients.
but i walk up and down non stop.
i really dislike the staff at w52B.
the staff there are irritating.
things were transfered to us in that manner?
screwed up eh!!!!



after ending that tiring work of mine,
i dragged my feet home.
knowing boy will not be coming to fetch me home.
then, i saw a familiar lorry in front of me!!!!
oh ho~....
i was so surprised.
really really surprised.
it's was so unexpectedly.
got in the lorry.
and felt so peace and safe.
what uncle says is true,
i have to endure.
waht i have to do is really 'ENDURE'.




when i'm home,
i felt soooooo much better.
having talked to some ppl around me,
and gather all the things that i shd do.
and what i shdn't.
at least last night i had a good peaceful sleep.
at least last night i smiled to sleep.
at least last night i dream beatifully....


all thanks to the both of them.
who end my day an unexpected one...


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today is someone's birthday...
hmm, a patient of mine.
a troublesome patient.
but a funny one.
he gimme jokes that i can share
and make ppl around me laugh like crazy.
if i ever mention this joke regarding: "我的蓝鸟要飞掉了"
you should know who's birthday is it...

anyway, sister koh is nice enough to wrote a birthday card for him.
and i guess we're celebrating for him this afternoon.
and just nice i'm afternoon shift.
sometimes working at a step down ward can be very fun...
but sometimes,
you'll find it super bored...

i'm finally on morning shift today.
not that i wanted,
but it was as plan...


so as usual i woke up at 5am,
prepare my uniform and prepare to bath.
and as i step into the bathroom with the sleepiest mood,
i THINK i saw cockroach!!!!!
a pretty huge one...
within 1meter away from me.
so scary.. and disgusting.


i was being awaken,
and that's the only 5am my eyes are wide open.
i manage to 'shower' the cockroach out of the room..

and when i went down the lift,
that's where i saw the next cockroach!!!!!!
AGAIN! and this time round i almost step it...
OMG...
this, again, freak the hell out of me.
i'm seriously so phobia with cockroaches...

shoo shoo... all cockroaches!!!




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alright, i can finally declare that i'm exectly 3months old!!!
3months old at workplace, at SGH.
23 march i joined.
hmmm.... time really passes fast.
and tml is the last day of my competency check!!
and tml i'm off...
din manage to finish everything.
luckily with the help of sister chow...



alright, so now my ward area has additional set up.
part of our place was given out to AnE staff,
where they admit H1N1 patient.
cause TTSH is overflow.
so now my ward has turn from
SMALL to mini...
hmm... pathetic...

there goes...
always having a bad habit when i'm stuck in a difficult situation.
this time round, is the cold war at home.
i was being locked out for 5hrs last night.
feeling lost.


i really dunno how to solve this problem.
i need the remedy to this coldness.
i want all unpeaceful to end.
and knowing i created so much hatred to her with my existance.
suicidal thoughts.
cause i'm leading a life with a broken family.
and since then, i dunno what's HAPPINESS.
a family that has been unable to heal.
not even with time.


a used-to happy family ended years ago,
and till now,
i'm still sufferring.
a family of love and kinship that no longer exist.
a blood-related kinship.
that's what i really need.
but it no longer belongs to me.
i lose it totally.


i feel like giving up sooooooooooooo many times.
because i dunno what's life without a proper home.
i've just live a day by a day... ... ...









anna has once again broke down.
stuck in this complicated world call f-a-m-i-l-y.
i'm so tired to meet challenges in life.
is life really all abt dealing with challenges?
i wish everything can just stop,
or can i just disappear from living in this world,
so all misery can end?
i really really dunno when i'll be ready to face all this.


the anna that everyone used to know,
is no longer strong....

My off day is here again! dinner at 'THE BOTAK JONES'. SHIOK!

i'll be pretty busy..
busy looking for tables.
busy searching for computer monitors.
busy searching for the best cable plans to sign.
and i'll be getting my own desktop very very soon.
small renovation and changes in my sis room.
and it's gonna be our dream fulfilled...




having been so crazy over MAYDAY.
i seriously just can't wait for the august concert to start.
it's the first time they hold concert in spore for TWO days.
it's two consecutive days man..
and i'm crazy enough to buy the most expensive tickets
for the both days...
ya, i'm spendthrift.. i know...
but, they have just been part of my life...
they had been part of my life for 7years already...
so, it's all worth afterall..

-no mayday, no life-

i used to HATE(s) this shoes.

i finally broke down.







with the stress at work yesterday.
adding on pressure + irritating mother of mine.
i exploded.

cried on the way back.
cried on the way to dinner.
cried on the way home.
cried throughout the night.
cried till i tired and fall asleep.

i lost my patient's document.
and my patient is to transfer to another ward.
i used my off duty time to search the whole nursing office.
i couldn't find.
search up and down, in and out of all brown folders.
i still couldn't find.
my colleague ask me to go home.
i crack my painful head,
thinking where is the possible place that i misplaced it.

the worst part is,
sister chow had just gone thru the appraiser form with me.
it's something that every staff will receive every 3months.
and ytd, after talking to sister chow,
the news of lost document was delivered to me.
( how UPs and DOWNs can this be!!!!)




as for my mom,
well, sigh...
i know this yr both of us just cannot click properly.
she started her nonsense.
saying that i show her attitude,
saying that i am not willing to help her buy some stuff.
i managed to clarify what product she wants,
and ended up?
her rubbish came into picture...


seriously couldn't take it last night. really.
ANESTHESIA is what i need badly...
i stone into ppl around me.
laughing.
knowing that they are happy.
yet my emotion was drenched deep into a pool of shit.
i want ppl to share some happy moments with me.
so as to feel happy as well.
but, i din manage to.
i still ended up crying.
under my warm blanket....



i blast music into my ears.
i drenched myself in cool running shower.
i drank super icy choco frappe.
i eat super spicy food.
or i chew a lemon that i found in the fridge.
i cried so hard.
i felt lousy.
i just want to do anything that's to the extreme,
because that's what i felt... ....




and while i slept,
i dreamt of mayday.
i dream that i was in their concert,
that's happening this coming august.
maybe that's the only remedy for me.
to scream out my LOWest feeling..

IT course today...