i've come out with all the necessary thoughts of what my name is going to be over the weekends. so this is it: Anna Mercier Rene will be my neeeeew name! and for my chinese name : 梁嘉轩
so i'm going to change this name soon. let me save up some money. afterall, i'm changing my IC, passport, and doing a deed poll in the law firms. hmm... procedures. procedures.
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29 September 2008
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the latest topic that everyone will be mentioning these days: F1 night race. i watched the race last night on telly. OMG! so damn cool. the speed that they are driving, so impossible to see it on normal roads. (of course!) Guess normal vehicles dun even have that kinda speed.
anyways i was given a ticket on fri to watch it live. but i give it a missed. afterall i still enjoy watching it over the telly. cause you know who is coming first and how many more laps left for them. you can see how badly the car crashed and see how those glamorous-costly car damage during the accident.
i particularly love that red ferrari. so nice la! drove by F. Massa. but he's a lousy driver. he was placing no. 1 during the first few rounds. but later on he was last! my sis just love Hamilton-- that mercedes one. haha.. he got in 3rd.
overall, it's so interesting to watch the race. and having it in spore. cause i'm sure it is being broadcast to many other countries. and ppl can enjoy the beautiful night scenery of spore too.(why i ended praising spore?hmm...)
so that's it. i just ended work from popping the popcorn whole morning. tml, another morning of work. i wanna work whole day on wed-- double pay... *woot* *wink-wink*
anyways i was given a ticket on fri to watch it live. but i give it a missed. afterall i still enjoy watching it over the telly. cause you know who is coming first and how many more laps left for them. you can see how badly the car crashed and see how those glamorous-costly car damage during the accident.
i particularly love that red ferrari. so nice la! drove by F. Massa. but he's a lousy driver. he was placing no. 1 during the first few rounds. but later on he was last! my sis just love Hamilton-- that mercedes one. haha.. he got in 3rd.
overall, it's so interesting to watch the race. and having it in spore. cause i'm sure it is being broadcast to many other countries. and ppl can enjoy the beautiful night scenery of spore too.(why i ended praising spore?hmm...)
so that's it. i just ended work from popping the popcorn whole morning. tml, another morning of work. i wanna work whole day on wed-- double pay... *woot* *wink-wink*
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26 September 2008
my 310 post:
an outing for mom, me and sis today. sis took mc from work. and all of us are going out!
sis had her name changed few months ago. mom had her name change few days back. mine? soon. soon. my name ANNA will still remain. no more 'huang lanyan' in my IC soon. i'm thinking of a great name. i'm changing my chinese name too. no more 黄兰雁. i'm going to have the same surname as mom. purpose of changing? ask me in person, ok?
sis and mom going to FINALLY make their passport today. so i'm tagging along. i'll make mine after i've change my name. everything will be change by this year. so... ya.
alice is out of s'pore today. well, bon voyage to her. she's off to china. so good. can go oversea... (hump... when's the last time i went oversea?)
mayday updates: mayday coming to superband 2 finals-- 5th oct. mayday coming for spore hits award--25oct. mayday latest album will be out by oct.mayday coming for concert with other celebrites on 29nov. (woah... mayday is BACK) well, i'm just a freak of mayday. what to do? ahaha...
an outing for mom, me and sis today. sis took mc from work. and all of us are going out!
sis had her name changed few months ago. mom had her name change few days back. mine? soon. soon. my name ANNA will still remain. no more 'huang lanyan' in my IC soon. i'm thinking of a great name. i'm changing my chinese name too. no more 黄兰雁. i'm going to have the same surname as mom. purpose of changing? ask me in person, ok?
sis and mom going to FINALLY make their passport today. so i'm tagging along. i'll make mine after i've change my name. everything will be change by this year. so... ya.
alice is out of s'pore today. well, bon voyage to her. she's off to china. so good. can go oversea... (hump... when's the last time i went oversea?)
mayday updates: mayday coming to superband 2 finals-- 5th oct. mayday coming for spore hits award--25oct. mayday latest album will be out by oct.mayday coming for concert with other celebrites on 29nov. (woah... mayday is BACK) well, i'm just a freak of mayday. what to do? ahaha...
• my favourite arthor...•
25 September 2008
after watching the movie 'PS i love you', i'm stung by the movie that i watched it twice in the theatre and bought the VCD. not enough, i got myself the novel. i'm just so crazy over the movie. after reading the novel, i'm amazed by the writer Cececlia Ahern. now i got my second book by her, Love Rosie.
and now anna has turned into a bookworm. it's a sky-dropped event to see me read, NOVELS? haha.. well, i'm just hooked onto it and i bring it wherever i go. to BO, to work, while travelling, right before i sleep... ... i wrapped the book nicely like how i did when i wrapped my textbook when i'm in primary school.
and now anna has turned into a bookworm. it's a sky-dropped event to see me read, NOVELS? haha.. well, i'm just hooked onto it and i bring it wherever i go. to BO, to work, while travelling, right before i sleep... ... i wrapped the book nicely like how i did when i wrapped my textbook when i'm in primary school.
i'm just hooked on this book now.
i've found my favourite author and i'm planning to get her collections. ( not all at one go but one at a time) . so ppl, i'm hinting on my coming birthday, so you shd know what to buy for me, huh? lalalalala....
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having been so hardworking to work for money. i'm so tired. and anna is finally so sick of the smell of popcorns. (yet to realised how oily it can be). eek!
anyways, we had a talk-it-out session. spouting of feelings and thoughts. it's the first time i've known to hurt a guy so deeply ever. as usual, my insensitiveness. i thought abt myself. selfishly,i am stuck between situations which makes me so feel like giving up. and that really hurt him. it makes him feel like giving up when i annoyingly mentioning abt what happen. i make him feels that all this while of struggling thru this relationship is not worthy and it's like wasting of time. only after we talked out did i realised he is going to face more probs then i do.
i was not myself for the past few weeks. i was thinking of wanting back single life. i wanted a carefree life. i want no pressure. that's the happiest choice of life-- making myself peaceful and living with no pressure. i realised life is not just as simple as i thought the moment when he told me that it is impossible for him to leave me.
well, storms are gone. shines are back. the gal that he used to know is back. i truely understand what will happen to him if i ever leave him. i can never imagine what might turn out to be in the future that i'm going and have promised to stay with him all the while. and i'm dead serious. i'm going to stay by him as long as i can. i, or rather, we will face all consequences.
there's something i really cannot explain. i want to let ppl around me to know that he is not a bad person. what really makes me hang on is his character. the kind of character that i so-far haven seen in any guys i met. he is more persistent then i do. and after being tgt for 10mths, i know how serious is he. i truely believe him. AND i want my family to believe in him too! but is it possible? (i hope adidas slogan can prove-- impossible is nothing)!
anyways, we had a talk-it-out session. spouting of feelings and thoughts. it's the first time i've known to hurt a guy so deeply ever. as usual, my insensitiveness. i thought abt myself. selfishly,i am stuck between situations which makes me so feel like giving up. and that really hurt him. it makes him feel like giving up when i annoyingly mentioning abt what happen. i make him feels that all this while of struggling thru this relationship is not worthy and it's like wasting of time. only after we talked out did i realised he is going to face more probs then i do.
i was not myself for the past few weeks. i was thinking of wanting back single life. i wanted a carefree life. i want no pressure. that's the happiest choice of life-- making myself peaceful and living with no pressure. i realised life is not just as simple as i thought the moment when he told me that it is impossible for him to leave me.
well, storms are gone. shines are back. the gal that he used to know is back. i truely understand what will happen to him if i ever leave him. i can never imagine what might turn out to be in the future that i'm going and have promised to stay with him all the while. and i'm dead serious. i'm going to stay by him as long as i can. i, or rather, we will face all consequences.
there's something i really cannot explain. i want to let ppl around me to know that he is not a bad person. what really makes me hang on is his character. the kind of character that i so-far haven seen in any guys i met. he is more persistent then i do. and after being tgt for 10mths, i know how serious is he. i truely believe him. AND i want my family to believe in him too! but is it possible? (i hope adidas slogan can prove-- impossible is nothing)!
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21 September 2008
so i've ended my geron attachment.. next up will be my A&E and OT. hmm, i'm really looking forward for the OT posting. and afterall, it's going to be a few months before PRCP starts. hmm.. how shd i put it. it seems like i'm still not ready for PRCP. i feel there's things i needed to know before PRCP. i feel that my basic foundation is still not to standard and that i might be in the losing end. i really need to buck up if not i'll suffer when PRCP comes... (sigh)
well, lately i'm just so pressured directly. i'm always been stuck in the middle.(dilemma) i'm so afraid to think abt future. really. how's future going to turn out to be? i'm so afraid to face it. i just wanna put in my best in everything i do now. but it's so hard. i'm yet again being forced to my limits. and how much can i hold on to? how long can i hang on till? i dunno. i always give up so easily. and this time round, i hope i don't. i've put in a lot of effort, and how much more do i need to give it in? i really feel like giving up in some ways.
it's going to get tougher everytime i step one step in. but when i step one step out, i feel like walking off and giving up. what should i do? i'm in self-struggle.
keep myself busy. keep myself busy. i wanna meet out all my friends. i miss the days i had fun times with friends. i need some pampering. but my money is being controlled by mom. nvm.. i want to work. i want to do what i wanna do. i just want CAREFREE!!!! PEACE!!!! (and mayday-- because their music brings me peace!)
anyways, i PASS all exams. i'm free from exams for the time-being:) but but, my gpa.... screwed totally. i really tried my best.. (have i? i did right?)
well, lately i'm just so pressured directly. i'm always been stuck in the middle.(dilemma) i'm so afraid to think abt future. really. how's future going to turn out to be? i'm so afraid to face it. i just wanna put in my best in everything i do now. but it's so hard. i'm yet again being forced to my limits. and how much can i hold on to? how long can i hang on till? i dunno. i always give up so easily. and this time round, i hope i don't. i've put in a lot of effort, and how much more do i need to give it in? i really feel like giving up in some ways.
it's going to get tougher everytime i step one step in. but when i step one step out, i feel like walking off and giving up. what should i do? i'm in self-struggle.
keep myself busy. keep myself busy. i wanna meet out all my friends. i miss the days i had fun times with friends. i need some pampering. but my money is being controlled by mom. nvm.. i want to work. i want to do what i wanna do. i just want CAREFREE!!!! PEACE!!!! (and mayday-- because their music brings me peace!)
anyways, i PASS all exams. i'm free from exams for the time-being:) but but, my gpa.... screwed totally. i really tried my best.. (have i? i did right?)
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10 September 2008
i must admit i'm very moody these few days.
having all sorts of mood-swings.
one moment happy, the next i'll be angry.
i'm so easily irritated by little things.
all the messages have not been deleted since that incident.
it's still remains in my inbox.
the every word that was sent to me, i can memorise them without looking at it.
how much can i put down?
how much can i really forget?
how long do i really need?
it's STILL been bothering me.
i hated being like that.
it's annoying me..
emo,
anna.
having all sorts of mood-swings.
one moment happy, the next i'll be angry.
i'm so easily irritated by little things.
all the messages have not been deleted since that incident.
it's still remains in my inbox.
the every word that was sent to me, i can memorise them without looking at it.
how much can i put down?
how much can i really forget?
how long do i really need?
it's STILL been bothering me.
i hated being like that.
it's annoying me..
emo,
anna.
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this two days i was attached to the rehab centre at bukit batok- tembusu rehab centre. it's fun and eye-opening to see how the physiotherapist and occupational therapist help the patient to ambulate their limbs. i have seen many stroke patient who has got one sided weakness and can't mobilised properly. i really think that having rehab centres is really something meaning that can help patient ambulate themselves and have more confidence in themselves even when they turn old...
anyway, nigel was in the same centre as me.. *irritating* i'm already working in the same ward as him at sgh and here again i'm working with him. he's full of crap man... so nonsense. alice!!! help me.. i can't tahan that "guy" there. oh ya! one of our patient says that he looks 50! and i look like only 17! [wahahahahaha.....] overall, great time of slacking and observing for the past 2days. :)
and for tml, i'm finally back to ward. i can't wait to see what happens to my 20/7 and my 19/8. these two fella's action can really make me happy the whole day.. i really have got cute patients... hahaha.. hope they can be discharged asap, but then again, i'll miss them.. :)
anyway, nigel was in the same centre as me.. *irritating* i'm already working in the same ward as him at sgh and here again i'm working with him. he's full of crap man... so nonsense. alice!!! help me.. i can't tahan that "guy" there. oh ya! one of our patient says that he looks 50! and i look like only 17! [wahahahahaha.....] overall, great time of slacking and observing for the past 2days. :)
and for tml, i'm finally back to ward. i can't wait to see what happens to my 20/7 and my 19/8. these two fella's action can really make me happy the whole day.. i really have got cute patients... hahaha.. hope they can be discharged asap, but then again, i'll miss them.. :)
• attachment days...•
05 September 2008
alright ppl, it's been sooooo long since i last post, so this gonna be a looooong post.. pls dun fall asleep while reading..
ok! ward 63. my attachment at sgh. it's one of the FEW c-class ward in sgh. it's a 100-beded ward. and i'm handling 17. shagged man!!! anyway, this is my secong time coming to this ward. first time was during yr 1. and again, i got male ward. this is the first time i feel that male patients are FUSSY. urine, da bian, urine da bian every hour. and not happening in one patient. well, i'll face it. it's ok. kinda routine to it after 5days. let's mention some chronic cases.
on my first day, i saw my first resuscitation after learning abt resus in school. but well, as student, all i can is hear them behind curtains. and all i heard was, ' compression, suction, check spo2,... ... ...' i was so urge to help but guess it's safer not to. haha.. anyway, patient pass away the next day. then we have a case of this guy who actually ate walnuts and got allergic to it. he came out in the papers few weeks ago. his condition is pretty critical. well, he is one of the patient who affected me so much emotionally after his death. he looks very sick and grasping for air every min though he is alr on 100% oxygen. having high fever all the while. and due to his condition, the sore on his back was the most terrible sores i've seen. imagine ligaments of femur bones can be seen? anyway he die due to choking, i guess. he was transferred to ward 58 and didn't receive adequate care.. this is all heard by other staffs, so i'm not too sure how he passed away too.
anyway, i'll rmb the scene whereby he actually drop his tears when we try to change his dressing. guess it's painful and he is just too weak to react.. i'm really feeling for him.. really sad for him..
well, in this ward.. hmmm... all sorts of cases you will see. safety precaution all the time. very important. just to say that comparing to my yr 1 experience, i'm having a tough time here. very tough. yet having many chances to practice my skills. tough because i have got 17patient to look after and many cases of contagious ones. resources are controlled due to cutting cost for patient, and no pampers for them. i have done NG tube feeding everyday and i'm soo pro in it. able to serve medication today. my first time serving 4patients. first time inserting urine cathether. first time putting up drips and changing it. done injections again and lots more skills.
seriously i'm just so tired la. my leg red alert me after 5hrs of working. and the aching really kills. but i'm happy that i've got good staff to work with. cause they are all fresh grads. i know this SN in my ward-- SN Ethel. she's the top student in NYP last yr or the yr back. heard so that she won all kind of award in schools and her posters are in school too. those super bright kid who grabbed all awards and stuff.. anyway, i really admire her. and her skin.. oh my.. so nice. ( okok, enough of admiring other gals..) anyway, i'm lucky to have helpful staff when your patient are sooo... ... ...
attachment is one third gone. ten more days to tahan. boy started working at mustafa and works 1-9 everyday. how sad. just get to know that the next chance to meet him will be next fri. so it'll be 10days of not meeting him. (what the hell..) but well, i understand. when it comes to attachment, there's really no time to think of other things accept patient. and i haven been missing him lately due to my tight schedule of attachment. and today is FRIDAY! my life is back to normal again. previous days are not life. hahaha.. now, i'm missing him like crazy again. i guess he feel worst.
ok, lately home have some slight renovation. my living look so much brighter and wider. mummy going buy new sofa soon, new TV console real soon. haha.. now she's alone furnishing the wall. i wish i got the time to help her too. cause i enjoy painting the walls too. but so tired to do that. well, this sunday, i shall help her with it. hopefully there are remainders for me to help. if not, it'll be unfilial of me!!
alright shall stop here. i'm so body-ached after 5days of work and i'm so hungry now.. food!!!! where's FOOD?!?! i need chocolate, again. well, dunno when i'll have chance to blog again. and i sure will update when i have the time.. tml, working whole day at lido(14hrs of working). -_-"'
ok! ward 63. my attachment at sgh. it's one of the FEW c-class ward in sgh. it's a 100-beded ward. and i'm handling 17. shagged man!!! anyway, this is my secong time coming to this ward. first time was during yr 1. and again, i got male ward. this is the first time i feel that male patients are FUSSY. urine, da bian, urine da bian every hour. and not happening in one patient. well, i'll face it. it's ok. kinda routine to it after 5days. let's mention some chronic cases.
on my first day, i saw my first resuscitation after learning abt resus in school. but well, as student, all i can is hear them behind curtains. and all i heard was, ' compression, suction, check spo2,... ... ...' i was so urge to help but guess it's safer not to. haha.. anyway, patient pass away the next day. then we have a case of this guy who actually ate walnuts and got allergic to it. he came out in the papers few weeks ago. his condition is pretty critical. well, he is one of the patient who affected me so much emotionally after his death. he looks very sick and grasping for air every min though he is alr on 100% oxygen. having high fever all the while. and due to his condition, the sore on his back was the most terrible sores i've seen. imagine ligaments of femur bones can be seen? anyway he die due to choking, i guess. he was transferred to ward 58 and didn't receive adequate care.. this is all heard by other staffs, so i'm not too sure how he passed away too.
anyway, i'll rmb the scene whereby he actually drop his tears when we try to change his dressing. guess it's painful and he is just too weak to react.. i'm really feeling for him.. really sad for him..
well, in this ward.. hmmm... all sorts of cases you will see. safety precaution all the time. very important. just to say that comparing to my yr 1 experience, i'm having a tough time here. very tough. yet having many chances to practice my skills. tough because i have got 17patient to look after and many cases of contagious ones. resources are controlled due to cutting cost for patient, and no pampers for them. i have done NG tube feeding everyday and i'm soo pro in it. able to serve medication today. my first time serving 4patients. first time inserting urine cathether. first time putting up drips and changing it. done injections again and lots more skills.
seriously i'm just so tired la. my leg red alert me after 5hrs of working. and the aching really kills. but i'm happy that i've got good staff to work with. cause they are all fresh grads. i know this SN in my ward-- SN Ethel. she's the top student in NYP last yr or the yr back. heard so that she won all kind of award in schools and her posters are in school too. those super bright kid who grabbed all awards and stuff.. anyway, i really admire her. and her skin.. oh my.. so nice. ( okok, enough of admiring other gals..) anyway, i'm lucky to have helpful staff when your patient are sooo... ... ...
attachment is one third gone. ten more days to tahan. boy started working at mustafa and works 1-9 everyday. how sad. just get to know that the next chance to meet him will be next fri. so it'll be 10days of not meeting him. (what the hell..) but well, i understand. when it comes to attachment, there's really no time to think of other things accept patient. and i haven been missing him lately due to my tight schedule of attachment. and today is FRIDAY! my life is back to normal again. previous days are not life. hahaha.. now, i'm missing him like crazy again. i guess he feel worst.
ok, lately home have some slight renovation. my living look so much brighter and wider. mummy going buy new sofa soon, new TV console real soon. haha.. now she's alone furnishing the wall. i wish i got the time to help her too. cause i enjoy painting the walls too. but so tired to do that. well, this sunday, i shall help her with it. hopefully there are remainders for me to help. if not, it'll be unfilial of me!!
alright shall stop here. i'm so body-ached after 5days of work and i'm so hungry now.. food!!!! where's FOOD?!?! i need chocolate, again. well, dunno when i'll have chance to blog again. and i sure will update when i have the time.. tml, working whole day at lido(14hrs of working). -_-"'
