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30 December 2007

this is mayday new concert poster.. their first concert in yr 2008.
when will they be coming to spore again?
hmmm.. i'm not going to mis any of their concerts.. buahaha...
mayday rocks my world..


• a new yr, a new start..•

2007 revolution:
- must go for mayday concert
- stay healthy
- family peace
- earn lotsa money
- make more friends
- learn what i always wanted
- get myself attached
- go oversea
as obvious, in yr2007, some of the revolution were met. those that din come true are going to continue in this next coming yr.. now i shall start on my
2008 revolution:
- go for mayday concert(get the most ex ticket)
- stay healthy
- support myself independently( financially)
- proceed to yr 3 smoothly
- better paid job
- celebrate 1 anniversary with boy
- earn my first $5K
- friends peace
- family peace( hope that idiot will leave us asap)
- go oversea
- do something that i had never dare doing..


• 2more days of holidays!!!•

ok... it's sunday!! i'm not working. finally i have my own day to do my own things. sometimes this kinda feeling is just so relaxing and enjoyable. well, back to topic. it's my last 2days of holidays. but i guess i need to go to school tml for project.

this holiday, i din really study much. haven't been revising and stuff.. so? i'm now doing the last min reading thru of all my books to recall my bio and nursing sciences and also the psychology. this coming wed onwards will be the beginning of my busy days. more exams coming up. few more proj to settle. BCLS is coming and i realised i'm not prepared. attachment is reaching in 3weeks time. schedule shd be pretty pack.

just hoping i am able to hang on for 2more months before i reach some more freedom in life. 2months!! i need and must hang on. the most troubled thing will be boyboy. i really dun think i am able to keep him accompany. it'll gonna pack with studies. sigh.. gonna neglect him again.. but i know he'll understand. boy, must hang on tgt with me ok?


• a long chat between us•
29 December 2007

slept at 2am last night.. very tired and sleepy.. but all that.. worthwhile. finally, i talk out my feelings.. to him, my boy..

well, i was quite lost and how things are going-- as usual, this is what i'm always feeling. well, i finally had the courage to tell him how i feel. i dunno what i wanted. i always crave having it. now that i have it, i dunno how to manage it and stuff. my previous post, boyboy read it. he can read my mind. he just know the meaning behind those things that i've mention. that is scary. because i never expect him to be able to understand it.

becasue he knows something was wrong with me and that makes it easier to talk things out. we chatted a lot. very long. 3 hrs. about everything. my past, my family prob, my personal prob, my life.. he, share abt his experiences, his past, his life. so many things.. well, after all this, i guess we really understand each other better. hearing his advice and his comments really makes me feel good. at some point during our conversation, i just feels like listening to him all the while. his stories are so interesting. haha...

boy, now that i have talk out my heart, i really mean what i had mention. my past had a great impact on me that makes me closed up myself. i hope you will be someone who will once again, open my heart and feels brave to face the world. must be by my side no matter what ok? must rmb all the words that i've said last night. it's really the true me..

and i am awaiting to see the serious side of you.. hahaha.. it's yet to come!!! :))


• bored-ness•
26 December 2007

went out to find boyboy ytd. he went to his fren's chalet. at downtown. with his group of guy frens whom i never met before. not very close with them. out of so many of them, none look familiar. only know my boyboy. wanna try talking to them, but just found that the guys are so hard to click and mingle with. so... ... ... ya.

well, the place was kinda messy and stuff. so i actually clear up for them. erm.. ok la.. i was pretty willing to do that kind of stuff. cause it's like dirty to the max till i can't take it. haha.. after slacking there for a few hours, i'm really BORED. nothing much i can do to relieve boredness. boyboy did realise i was bored. so when later leave the group and have time on our own.

boy, your have a lot of frens. but not all of them i can really click with. maybe yes with GY, JW and gangs. but surely not the group of them ytd. no need to apologise to me. i know you wanna intro your frens to me and stuff.. i understand all those. i'm just speaking out my deepest thoughts to you so that you understand how your gal is feeling here. you shd understand what kind of frens i normally mixed with. i dun mind playful, havoc, crazy fun. your frens ytd are too extreme le. i won't stop you hanging out with them. but do let me know if you are. sorry if you feel any inconvenience. do speak out how you feel, cause i really care...


• emo anna, again...•

why do i need all this? for fun? for the seek of having? or what?
sometimes i really wonder.. what do i really want? what are my expectations? what do i really need... it's kinda of pointless wasting time on things not needed.

do you guys ever have this feeling: you were urge of having something, but once you got it, you feel like you dun actually needing it already..

well, this is exactly what i'm feeling. i always thought i wanted it badly, always thought that was what i need. i, now, fianlly got what i want. at first i felt *finally*( i got what i wanted so long), but now, i found it wasting of time, energy, money, and feelings.

this feeling kinda making me sick and tired. what the hell..

what a shitty feeling again.


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23 December 2007

many things had happened this few days. but something makes me really irritated adn i wanna mention here.

why have things to turn out this way again? why are you repeating the same thing like what you've done in the past. i somehow just have enough of you. your nonsence and your seeking- of -everyones- attention. i give you the attention you wanted but you are climbing onto my head. i help you all the time when you needed help but you dun seem appreciative. you almost make me lose control. i was worried for you but you never give face. i ask for so much help from many ppl around, and even almost quarrelled with them because of you. one of them was my battery. i dunno what i shd do now, but i got enough of you.

guys out there, you may know whom i'm refering to, but hey, i mention this in my blog because i can't stand it. i needa vent out a little to feel better. to my alice: i know i'm harsh, but pls forgive me. i owe you a big apology if only you hear my explanation. i got a lot to tell you, but i'm afraid you may ignore. i think we need to sit down and talk, that's the only way to sort things out. sorry gal, i'm being harsh. i was out of mind. take care. let me know when you are ready to hear me.. i'm truly sorry..


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havoc havoc.

that's all i can say.

summarising the crazy season of my birthday, my one month anni and christmas.

received lots of gifts from all my frens. received a lot of well wish from them too. for those who did some effort to send greetings and regards, anna is hereby thanking all of you guys for remembering her birthday. a BIG thank you!!!

above all, those who spent effort in creating something more( having parties, giving her surprises and getting all the present she wished for), anna is hereby 'confessing' she loves you guys.. to the extend that she'll always rmb those wonderful moments and rmb the effort you guys did for her.

i really appreciate everything i had received and thanks adding spices in my life. oh.. this feeling is just too great that i can only have it and experienced once a yr... i'll be looking forward for the next.. :)


• she's gone. the memory of 小乖•

it took me a lot of courage to write this...

she's gone.. forever.. my dearest baby. the most obedient out of the 6. the cutest among them. the 'sotong' among those. seeing her, i feel happie. she's my dearest baby who will cheer me wheni carry her. i rmb she bite me once. till it bleeds. now all that, is very worthy.


i miss her stare. i miss her face. i miss her bubbly movement. i miss her presence. but now.. she's gone. i seriously miss her. i will never forget the moment i found her dead. weak and stiff. cold and skinny. heart stop beating. *tears*


well, there's this saying: you will only start to treasure when something is gone. and by then will you realised that everything is too late. i hope i did treasure her enough before she leave me. she was the weakest among all of them. the very sick one.


i shall say, everytime i mention this issue, i wanna cry. cry out loud to let go this grief deep in me. but, i can't. i can't cry out. i force myself to, all the time, but nothing works. i'm feeling damn lousy, right deep in the heart. it's still not heal.. since the day she leave me.. dated: 17dec 2007!



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18 December 2007

guess what? i'm at alice house now.. buahahaha.. came to give her surprised... hahaha... dun say i treat you not good wor.. haha.. anyway today we planned to go shopping and stuff but she couldnt make it due to cramps..
this morning, i actually called her mom to ask her how to go to their house.. and guess what? her mom wanna drive me there... hahaha.. i meet her mom at bishan and later she drive me straight.. and here i am.. at alice house.. heh heh.. chat with her and so she wont be so bored...


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15 December 2007

i'm sure someone had an unforgettable night ytd..
alice, desiree, loretta, wei hao and i went out to amk hub last night to have dinner tgt. we went to fish & co. it was so crowded and we waited so long for our turn to get seated. all of us ordered new york fish n chips as intro-ed by loretta. all of us was so full.. and guess what? there are plans after dinner.
des and lor excused to toilet leaving the 3of us there chatting. i soon received a call from lor asking me to bring alice to toilet... so i did, leaving boy behind. we soon went back to our seats and after 10min, the waitress of fish & co. brought out a mini strawberry cake. they walk passed alice. behind her. alice turn to me and say:
alice: hey, i saw the cake and i tot it was for me. *grinning* but then i see them bring to the back.. chey!!! * :(( *
anna: huh? it's for you..
at this moment, the waitress turned and bring the lighted cake to alice. alice was so shocked. i really admire the way fish & co. celebrates birthday. after some attention seeking cheers and shouts, they ask alice to stand on the chair with the sparkles and we sang her the birthday song while she look so PAISEH.. the look of her face is so rare lor.. gal, can sense you are feeling damn paiseh yet happy at that point of time. haha...
with the distance of standing on the chair, to the cake on the table, alice is to blow off the candle.. wahahaha...
alice i know you enjoyed your day ytd.. haha.. do u feel that all worries and unhappiness are suddenly overwhelmed by that joy and surprised? haha.. anyway, happie 20th bday to you.. stay happy always okays? :))


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14 December 2007


i finally got this PVC e-sai monkey.. from xiao wei. cute right? my 2nd bday present..


this cup cake here is bought from xiaowei too.. it nice de lor.. from: gloria jean's.

this is what happen to a couple of milk-lover.. (from MOS)

sometimes it's bored to stay in a shell for long.
but it's pathetic when you forgot where you leave your shell.
(an empty snail shell fond in school.. poor snail, went out of shell)

the canoe.. if only i am able to leave this world, i will give all my strength and canoe to FRANCE!


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any idea what this is? haha.. it's my blood!! well.. we had our bio practical lesson ytd and we were allow to check our blood group. after pricking ourselves, we needa dip blood on the clear glass and put solution to it. the results for me is... i am blood group type A+. haha..
had so much fun.. but alice din wanna get prick.. that's the right choice. cause the pain that your finger will had is quite unbearable. now my middle finger got one needle prick and it's so numb.. eww.. *painful de lor..*


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13 December 2007

i am in happy mood now.. cause tml can meet my boy.. hahaha...but 6days never meet him... argh!!

hey boy,
i really miss you. it's been so much fun going out with you. i really enjoy every moments with you. we are always busy de... aww.. no time to keep you accompanied. feel so bad and neglected you. sorrie.. anyway, my holidays is here! can stick with you soon. haha.. tc, boy.. 4164771968...
i miss your hug.

sweetheart,
a anna a :))


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hmmm.. i'm here to gossip again.. was working at cck ytd. saw spencer again. dots... he keep calling me daisy and sunflower.. what the hell..

anyway, i finally saw who Naga is.. this new indian lady here who is new. she only started working for around 3weeks. but she is just too ya-ya-papaya.. my 1st day working with her ytd and guess what? she just pissed me off. she is so unflexible. do things according to book. i know she's working fulltime here and be an in charge. but no need to be so proud de lorr.. irritating. immediately she irritates me, i went to complain to boy boy and ashikin. ashikin was like telling me that actually no one likes her. guess she irritates many ppl le. me as well..

anyway, ytd she show attitude to one of the customer. the customer wanna complain. well, i can say that both of them are at fault. i think that working in service line, customers are always right. they can be sacarstic and demanding, but we just cant show them attitude. it's a tough thing not to put feelings into work and stuff. sometimes things like 'feelings' are just so hard to control. and as for ppl like me, who always mood swings.. i can give you more attitude.. haha..


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12 December 2007

have been so busy lately.. haha.. fianlly got some time to blog.. anyway, time really flies. one month pass le.. our one mth is coming.. must start to prepare his postcard le.. hmm.. times flies. i'm a year older soon too. i'm getting old(er) liao.. more white hair appearing.. more wrinkles forming.. (whatever!)

anyway, have been cracking lots of brain cells to think of christmas gift and birthday gift.. i'm gg broke le... argh.. i seriously need to work for more money... if only i can get ang-pow for my birthday present...


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9 more to my birthday!!!
my next plan coming up..
17dec: working..
18dec: going suntec with my battery
19dec: out with boy boy( our 1mth anni)
20dec: vanessa chrsitmas party
21dec: celebrating bdae with sis and mom
22/23dec: working..
25dec: chalet with boyboy and frens
so this means? my schedule are packed!!! busy busy... anyway, it's holidays!!!!


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06 December 2007

hurray>>... i just completed my bio practical... buahahaha... *celebrate*
i can say that i am confident in passing but not confident in scoring. haha.. it's like, can you imagine this practical gonna be my last bio practical. no more bio pract for me.. no.. shoo!!!

anyway, i'm still mugging hard for my elective ICA. it's tml!! and the group of us are like just started the revision today. wahahaha.. i must pass all modules this sem as well.. NO SUPP PAPER OR SECOND ATTEMPT FOR ME!! hahaha..

after this exam period, i guess i need meditation, aromatherapy and stuff. i need to de-stress myself. bth... still rmb that time during eunice's grp presentation, nicole did a small meditation to the class. i found it pretty effective and relaxing.. cool...

well, i'm right now already in my holiday mood le. ahhh.... can't wait for outdoor activities to get into my schedule. i need them. it's been 5days since i last met boy boy. omg... i'm seriously missing him. will be seeing him tomorrow. yuppy... *great*. i need the hug, boy.


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04 December 2007

guess what.. i'm staying in school to study bio on my own... be a loner.. no la. basically it's pretty tough to study at home when all the entertainment is so reachable. so i prefer to study in school.
mugged hard. :))

a anna a.


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as i mentioned.. my next exams are coming. on this thurs, i will be having bio practical and this fri will be having written paper on that boring elective of mine. siansation* but what to do? i needa work very hard this time.. needs bring up my GPA. if not my cert will be super ugly.. eww..



so this means that i have to cut down phone calls with boy boy and less tv watching. less outing and less slacking. but anyway, after this friday, i'm going to havoc and enjoy my holiday. though it's not holiday yet. but.. who cares? exams are over...


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this is what happen to me...
my eyes are totally swollen.
i have to wear this pathetic shades wherever i'm outside.
went to consult doctor ytd and i've spent total of 80bucks on curing this eye infection itself.
i'm going broke.
well.. it's pain in my pocket and also my eyes.






but after having the medication prescribed by the eye specialist, my eyes are recovering fast. i got a super big antobiotic to swallow and also an eyedrop to drop before i sleep. hai..

ytd night, was trying to study my bio... den i realised my vision is blurred. ahh... sian.. exams coming le....!!!! shucks!


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03 December 2007

i just miss my beautiful eyes. why will i get such a worst infection ever? it's so irritating and 'gao- way'. i can't stop hoping that my eyes can recover asap. it's just driving me crazy. everyday waking up, hoping to see sunshine. hoping that my eyes will be able to open for the day. i feels how a blind persons feels. the worry on how the world is changing. i just need a super doctor who can cure my eyes. maybe i will marry him straight away.. *opps*( pretend i din mention anything). i'm still hoping miracle will happen. maybe oneday, i open my eyes, i can see the beautiful in the mirror. no longer that disfigured me and that yucky eyes of mine. i'm consulting another doctor later. hopefully eveything goes on well. i need my eyes back. it's part of my soul. return it back to me!!!

i'm sadden! very! unhappiness. zonked! irritating. mood- foul. sucky. low confident. whatever you name it. I AM JUST FEELING LOW AT THIS MOMENT! pls bear with my naggings and my mournful talks. i'm just trying to let this expression out. not wanting to get depression...


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some photos taken from 29 nov~ 1 dec.
photos sharing session...

the beautiful daisy- yellow and orange combination

obvious it's a christmas tree behind us!


[some 'arts' to share..]






[some effort done..]


and...





well.. basically, these few days i'm busy with outings and stuff. was working on thurs at cck. was pretty down due to that presentation. boy gave me a surprised by bringing that daisy all the way from his workplace to cck. i was so touched as i really din expect that he'll turn up after telling him not to. but he still did. so nice of you, wei hao.

next was friday. we went for movie. "enchanted".. finally have the chance to watch it. it's really fairytale, yet i found it entertaining. it's pretty nice and i feel that the ending is pretty unexpected. good movie. we went for neo print taking after that.

sat! went SENTOSA. yahoo.. well with quite a big group of frens. got xiaowei, jun wei, gang yuan, gy's sis, gy's sis's bf, kenny, david, zhao min and of course my boy! full of havoc-ness man.. at first i din wanna get down to the water, but in the end i still did. well.. it's my 1st time outing with all of them and it's really unforgettable. since after jun wei's chalet, it's the second time i see them all. well.. we meet at harbour front and later to sentosa-- palawan beach. the guys are so havoc and crazy. we gals are like playing with water only. haha..

after all, we went to vivo for dinner. guess that's the most expensive dinner we guys ever had. den boy and i went off first to toa payoh to help my bro get a new mobile phone that he ever wanted... i was suddenly craving for coffee bean hot chocolate and we went to buy it. woah... i feel so contented and nice. hot chocolate is always a drink that will chill me and cheer me. boy boy first time drinking that and i guess it's not too sweet for him-- cause he dun like sweet stuff. boy, do you feel the same addiction as me? buahahahaa..




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