had a 8 hours lecture on IV medications.
having to learn 36drugs in 30days.
exams coming on 30april.
written paper-50 mcqs.
i need 35/50 to pass.
i start to feel something that i'm afraid of
and that's stress.....

vancomycin, penicillin, potassium...
all these names will be floating in my dreams.

and today, release of ward locations.
still rmb the day i had my interview with directors.
still rmb the days i spent during PRCP.
still rmb the day i got a choice to choose where i wanna go.
still rmb sister persuading me to go back ward 46.
still rmb my top 3 choices, and they are:
1)OT
2)nursery
3)AnE



... ... ... ...




having recalled so much,
i really dunno how to react.
how did i end up in ward 11 and 12???
i got to know that
that ward is an isolation ward.
it's not located 'IN' sgh, but a street across it.
it's a step down ward and it's mend for elderly
who's transfering to aged-homes.
so i guess,
i will not receive any student posted there?
i will be quite slack and lose all skills?
do i need to do shift work?
any night shifts?
i will be handling many patients?
i will be like working in an old folks home?


well, all these are doubts to me right now.
i'm going to clear them tml!!!!

(i still dunno how to react towards the allocation i've got...)

alright... first day of work.
i'll be 8am to 4.30pm for the next 21days.
stucking in patho lab most of the time.
listening to lectures.
and i'll be having exams and practical real soon..
well... it's studying time again.
cannulations. IV meds. blah blah blah...
nursing life is back.
after enjoying my 7weeks of hols.
so that's the end of fun.
and the start of real work...

i need some motivations for work actually...
sigh...

having chat with pancho over phone the other day.
yes! that EN in ward 46.
he kept telling me the bunch of us
will end up in ward 46 when start work.
my reaction: NO WAY!!!
seriously that's the worst ward in sgh
you will ever wanna work in.
try it and you'll know what i mean.
anyway, i've got to know many staff resign
after working in ward46.
that's a bad sign.
seriously i think i'll break down if i'm really posted there.

i've went praying.
so i hope i'll receive something
more of my liking.
i believe in fate.

***

i know i've been drifted away from them.
sometimes i just dun get it.
am i just invisible?
i just feel left out everytime.
really everytime.
maybe i really dun belong in the clinque.
and now, i've given up.
given up hope, time, energy to care abt
every single thing abt this.
just not my type of shit.
shoooooo...
anna just don't give a BIG SHIT DAMN.

yesterday, 20 march.
i end my journey working in moviebites- SHAW.
after one and half year of:
fun.
memories.
making new friends.
dealing with the-weirdest-customers.
hearing the weirdest orders ever.
handling the longest queue in life.
popping the hottest popcorns ever.
have the biggest scald scar while popping popcorn.
smelling the nastiest nachos cheese ever.
staying till 5am packing 1000 popcorns.
seeing the nicest customers.
knowing Mark Lee's fav food in kacang putih( sugar peanut).
having the attitude-plus-mood-swing-period.
counting endless cups and cones.
seeing many many celebs.
eating free food after movie premier/ gala.
talked to the most chek-ko-pek ticket manager ever.
have the fun-iest block booking.
the sneaking into movie theatres for free movies.
seen the big boss( Mark Shaw) countless times.



all and all, i'm no longer the staff there.
i'll remember the days and experience i've got.
a memorable journey of life.
with friends, my ex colleague.
i know i was once with them before...
take care everyone.

thank u ppl.
anna left moviebites with a smiling face.
and loads of memories.

here comes my post again.
someone will be so free at home today.
and he told me he gotta do housework.
he wanna tidy his room.
well, not bad, at least
he is initiated to do chores.
and his plans today is
to meet me at work after chores.

how i wish he will join me for dinner tonight.
so i will no longer have dinner alone.

it's been our 14days straight meeting each other.
felt more lovely after everyday.
getting happier everyday, with him.

* that someone that i'm referring to*

i found the right guy.
he just love seeing me smile.
he just like me being happy all the time.
and if i'm sad or unhappy,
he will find all means to cheer me up.
whether to say something really lame and stupid,
or buying things for me,
and even bringing me to somewhere that can
really make me enjoy and be happy.

he will pick my bag when it's heavy.
and he never mind how flower my bag is.
he will always kneel down for me
to tie my shoelace.
he will cover my head with his big palm,
when there's drizzle.
even the smallest drizzle that you feel
it might be ok to be under.

he will bring me to everywhere i wanna go.
and to every place to eat where i craves for.
the amazing-iest part is,
he knows what i'm thinking.
giving him a shy look and he will knows
what i'm thinking.
many a times, he dun mind sending me home.
he lives in east and i'm at west.
he never mind the distance.
and if he didn't send me,
he'll surely call and talk over the phone
to keep me occupy all the time.

he is someone who never lied to me.
and he seldom keep a thing from me.
he is someone whom i can trust.
someone who i can rely on.
he may look like a big bad guy,
but never judge someone by looks.
cause he is really the type of guy
that i mentioned.
the right guy that i wanted...

boy, you know me the best.
without you, life will be so different.
one more week to our 16month-versary.
no matter where you go,
i'm always with you...

see how happy he was...!?!

(i'm sure he wish something regarding me...)



his sec sch clicks.

the body guards.

(look at his cramp face... ahha..cute)

i personally LOVE this photo. cos tt's the same reaction he gave me when i tickle his ear everytime.
-his bro gang.

*how delicious will this cake taste?*
will they landed onto my face?

yes, in the end, there were cake smashing.
and well, his face was gone with the cakes.
and seriously, the cake was nice.

i'm sure everyone who came,
enjoyed themselves at the chalet.
there goes, we've marked an end
to this chalet- b'day celebration.
memories and photos are with us.
thanks to everyone who came.

i've been meeting boy for straight 9days.
bestest moments.
if he's coming to my workplace tonight,
it'll be 10days straight.

past 3days, the best outing for me and him.
it's his b'day chalet.

07.03.09-first day of chalet.
prepared everything for his BIG day.
held at downtown east.
room 1405.
tidy that tiny room that both of us
would spent the night tgt.
it's our first time,
living with each other.
we're all excited.

we catched our first midnight movie.
Marley and me- 1.50am.
i cried so badly in the movie.
i cried in his arm.
and back to chalet, we slept at 4am.

08.03.09-the actual day of b'day.
went ntuc. buy cornflakes and milk.
had our breakfast in bed.
and soon his friends came.
played monopoly.
me and him, the last two survival.
his the biggest winner afterall.
b'day boy's luck.

prepared for bbq.
defrost all food.
waiting for his parents.
and waiting for more friends to come.
slowly more came.
i was soo busy cooking.
many friends turned up.
and some didn't.
drank that ice wine carol bought for him.
it's really nice. sweet wine.
alcohol content 9%. not so strong.
had a good chat with carol.
all friends went off by 2am.
nights off for both of us...

09.03.08
wake up pretty early.
bathed and pack our stuff.
booked out at 10.20am.
had our breakfast.
took cab home.
HSH for more sleep...

*photos are post in next entry*

wake up at 8 this morning.
meet parwin at SGH.
went to collect our uniform.
alright, i've got 1 set of pants,
1 set of dress.
the lady still owe me one set of pants.
so that means i've to go back again...


guess what... i'm able to fit into the size XS!
omg... guess that's the only clothes i have
in my wardrobe that is XS.
amazing...


i'm still sleepy though.
need to work later...
talking abt work.
this time round,
i'm really quitting movie bites.
SGH dun allow a part-time job.
so what to do,
i'll make my leave.
gonna say goodbyes and farewells soon!!

counting down...
21 days more to start work.
3 more weeks to play and enjoy.
i need more FUN.
i need real MEETUP with friends.
i need more CHILLOUT.

really can't imagine i'm entering into workforce that soon.
2 more days to collect my NURSE uniform.
the scariest thing you will ever want to wear.
coz once that's up, responsible is the word.
*anna need some motivation*

boy is turning 21!
in 6 days time.
chalet at downtown this sat.
i got him a windbreaker.
the most expensive gift i got for him.
but it's not the amt spent that counts,
but da thots.. right? *wink*
i know he'll like that...
more updates to come...